Maybe one day I'll stop breathing.
Maybe one day I'll stop feeling pain.
Maybe one day I'll find the answer to why but until then, here is where I lie.

I'm with a guy. He tends to hide and lie.
Who thinks it okay to kiss a *****, when he happens to be with me.
Oh by the way it is **** well cheating and this is the second time.
How many more times are you going to make my cry.

I know I'm not perfect.
I am quite far from that but why don't you notice the good and quit picking out my flaws.

I asked you why you are with me.
All you could say was I don't know.
Wow that just hurt me.

You don't see it.
You are blind.
You tell me everything is fine.
Why did you lie?

I can't take it anymore.
I don't deserve this.
I wanted to be treated with respect but no you'd rather check out other chicks.

You say I should be happy that you are looking and not touching.
That is a big fat lie.
You told a ***** you had a girlfriend  
Then you landed a passionate kiss.
Not caring how'd I feel.
Not seeing that I existed.

I know I have made mistakes.
Kissing a chick and grinding with two guys.
Don't worry I knew I was with you but I was looking for a good time.
You shouldn't be worried because you probably won't care.
You were too busy flirting and calling her your baby.
When I thought that was me.

The **** of you obsession is absolutely redundant.
That is more important to you than me.
Enjoy yourself while I am sleep.
I know that's when you decide to ******* because apparently I can not please.

When your not around I please myself.
I touch myself.
All you have to say is I knew I couldn't satisfy you.
Maybe now you see how I feel.

Looking at you and kissing you.
They are two different sides.
I am with you.
I can't believe you are mind but also I'm sick of this **** you do to me.
One more **** up and I'm through with you.

You have no heart like I.
So you should be fine and able to survive.

Peace.

I'm addicted to you
And everything you do.
All the pain you put me through.

It's like a drug you put inside me.
Trying to keep me same
But instead your driving me insane.

I stayed up late last night
All because you started a fight.

I'm addicted to you
And everything you do.
All the paid you put me through.
It's all because I stay with you.

I hang on by every word you say.
As I inject you straight to my veins.

The way you kiss me.
The way you move your hands around me.
It's so seducing.
I can not help but wanting more.
Without you I can feel my withdraws.
Breaking all of the laws.

I'm addicted to you
And everything you do.
Even with all the pain you put me through.
I just cannot be without you.

The words of your mouth.
Hatred and anger.
The touch of your hand
Sends me a tingling sensation.

I keep going back to you.
Even though I say I am through with you.
As I inject you.
Withdrawls without you.
Is too much pain to handle.
I'd rather be with you.
Just hold my hand.
Please understand.

I'm addicted to you
And everything you do.
All the pain you put me through
I still come running back to you.

I ******* hate you.
I hate the **** you out me through.
What the hell did I ever do to you?
I don't deserve this.
I wanna be loved and treated with respect.
I'm not your ******* *****.
So stop treating me like a *******.

I can't believe I fell for you.
You put me through so much hell.
Your the kind of person filled with hate.
It's like you don't know how to love someone other than yourself.

I try to talk
You never listen.
You just continue to shut me out.

All I so is cry.
I cry because of you.
All you do is hurt me.
So why can't I be through.

I've been nothing but nice to you.
You still won't let me in.
You push me away.
I can't take the anymore.

I'm final ******* leaving you.
So *******.
Hope your happy now.

Everything is so black and grey.
I'm surrounded by all the reasons I cannot stay.
I've tried the drugs.
They take me away just for that moment of the day.
The alcohol stimulates me just a hangover in so much more pain.
The pain I feel never goes away.
No matter what I do.
It's always there to stay.
Maybe it is telling me I shouldn't be here today.
I've cried and I've cried with my blood shot tears.
It is hard to say what I will do next.
I'm im so much more pain.
I've overdosed on medication.
I'm surprised.
I should be in the hospital by now.
They would probably ask me too many questions as they examine me.
My body is bruised frome head to toe with cuts of blood here and there.
I'm im so much more pain.
I wish someone was still here to help me through my pain.
Everyone is gone.
They left me behind.
I'm in so much more pain.
I wanna know why I am still here.
All I wish is to go back in time.

Angry people,
And words of hate,
But when they say sorry.
It's already too late.

The words that burn.
The wounds they glisten.
I am sorry please just listen.

The burning lies in sorrow
That destroyed my will to face tomorrow.
The paper I folded
So neatly inside explains the life
I wish I never had.

Over and over it's the same everyday.
It comes to the point, where I can not stay.

I see the blade of a knife
Staring at me with sorrow
Written in words I see.

Now with the pain inside of me.
I take my life.
It's all over now.
That I've sealed my fate.

A word called sorry will come to late.

I don't know what to say.
I can't even explain to you how I feel.
I guess in simple words,
I feel used and abused.

You were everything to me.
I cared so much about you.
I gave you everything I could.

What was I to you?
Just some *** object you can use and abuse?
Just a *** object so you can fill your fantasies.

Did you even see who I was underneath my skin?
Did you see me as me?
Did you just hide me behind the images of your *******?

What was I to you?
Just some *** object you can use and abuse?
Just a *** object so you can fill your fantasies.

Well I got some news for you.
Listen to what I have to say real close.
I am human being.
I am a girl with a open heart.
You took advantage since I fell for you hard.
You broke my heart.

What was I to you?
Did I mean nothing at all?
Just a *** object you can use and abuse.
Just a *** object to fill your fantasies.

Your compliments mean nothing.
When I look you in the eye,
I can see that you just told me a lie.
I tried to hold on.
I guess I tried too hard for far too long.
I am finally to the point, where I am just numb.

What was I ever to you?
Just some *** object you can use and abuse?
Just a *** object to fill your fantasies.
That is what I was to you.