Drowning his soul in music,
Staying under until the last melody is relief,
Or at least until he's numb.
Heart frozen,
Mind and soul becomes troubled,
Innocence gone.
He's baffled.  
Can he find love under so much pain?

Hey what's going on in there
What's happening in my brain
Just let me get hold of it
Before it gets lost again

Some days a thought is lonely
And goes rattling round my head
Bouncing in endless circles
Long after it should be dead

Sometimes they come in battalions
Like spies to steal my secrets
Spewing them out to the world
Before I know any regrets

I'd like to feel totally numb
To float above all the pain
To find and press the off switch
To get off this express train

Sliding down into forever
Synapses without a spark
Someone turned off my power
One more beep flatline I'm dark

The Boxer  

  He had the saddest eyes I have ever seen
  hands trembled like drunkard's
  after a fortnight's  ****** but dipsomaniac
  could always have another drink
Ali could not Parkinson's disease saw to that
This poet of the ring a victim of success
egged on too long, just another fight my love
Honours and medal they bestowed him
it came too late his voice was but a whisper
In the glade butterflies fly as Ali once did
Not as fast as Mohammed Ali.

I ask of you,
Forgiveness beyond any other
For as I stand,
Oppon this broken earth
I fear of my past
Of my present
And the future I throw away
For I have sinned
Red stains my hands
‘Defence is justified’
But is it really?
Yes, he sinned first,
But do I truly have the right?
To take one's life?
‘An eye for an eye’
A life for a life
But mine is unfit
*****...
Sick...
It does not hold value
In this broken world
Where little light escapes
So I ask you,
As I take the step
Am I worthy of forgiveness?
I took a life,
In order to keep a choice
A choice I would of saved for my one and only.
But does that choice mean as much as a life?
Yes I was scared
Yes I was attacked.
Yes he sinned first
But my crime weighs more
So I ask for you to listen
And forgive.
Not of me.
But of him.
For I have taken a choice from him.
As he was going to do of me.
But as he was going to take a choice of body.
I took his choice of life.
I am filthy
Tainted
I do not deserve your presence
But please.
As I give my choice of life
In place of his
To forgive him.
For he was lost
And alone.
Like we were  once
So as I take the step into the air
I thank you
For listening
And I hope
That one day
One will do the same for you
As you have done for me
So Thank You.

There was a time when I was alone,

Nowhere to go and no place to call home,

My only friend was the man in the moon,

And even sometimes he would go away, too.

Ali once said
i've
lived
the
life of 100 men
i
float like a butterfly
and
i sting like a bee
i wrestled
with
an alligator
and
a polar bear
in
broad daylight
on top of
the
himalaya mountains
still
i rumbled
with
the
mighty lion of
the jungle
lord
i'm so fast and pretty
i can stick and move
as i dance
with
the
ali shuffle
and
knock you out
in round number 3
nothing can stopped me
i can't be moved
because
i am
the
greatest of all times
champ
you will always
be my hero
saints are born
and
not made
ali dead
at the age of 74

My words fail
Futile tears fell
Nothing to feel
You let me go
Now what I see in you
Smile that mocks me
Humour to torment me
Punches of repugnance
Your eyes carry it all
Pain of time with me
My weight lowered you
I couldn't see now
What I use to
Hidden in the layers
My words unfolding
With your touch
This time it is over
Numbness crept in
Nothing to hear
Nothing to say

Flying through the debris
I'm free
Here I am
I'm free at last
For the worth it will last
Forever and always
In my heart
Forgotten and buried
never to be again
In that nothingness
I WILL FIND YOU
And we will be
As we were
Always
Always meant to be
You and I
So high
In the sky
Amongst the stars
Feel my scars
Drink my pain
Feed my heart
I've been lonely
Yours only
For so far
Who we are
What we became
With every hour
And like shards
Sharks
and all the things between
It's all just an ocean
Always has been
So loved
So broken
So vile
Like you and I
So alive  
It's all a lie
Do not dream
Do not scream
Do not close your eyes
Fight
Fight the urge
Purge
On your instincts
Let yourself be
For this while
Do not hide
Do not fight
It'll be alright
Like I tell myself
Every night
Everything still feels the same
Even though
So many tears have passed
In so many years
Those couldn't last
I never asked
While I was breathing
Was it ever meant to last
For the worth it will last
It'll be mine to keep
Mine to breed
And feed
To be freed
This greed
Will bleed
And tear my heart in to pieces
Two pieces
Because that's all I have
One half of my own
More alone
Than you  could ever be
And you still can't see
You can't recall my face
Remember that place
That time
When you were blind
And I saw you
Through the debris