My wish:

It's to be better for you

But I don't know if it will come true

one missed call

*one new voicemail

"This isn't working anymore. I'm sorry. Were done. Goodbye"

About this?
This insane thing they call love.

I've been in love
Sure.
But do I know love?
Maybe.
All I want really is
To be happy.
And maybe I don't know that
Either.

I've lived every day
Faked a smile
Laughed falsely
Cried truly
And begged for forgiveness.

Honestly I'm pretty lost in
This thing we call life
But really what I know about life
Is as much as I know about love.

So then
what do I know about anything?

Miss you
See you
Want you
Need you

All these things
They certainly are true
Or at least I'd like them to be.
The thing is
I know they're not true for you.

You've gone
Become someone new.
Someone despicable
Annoying
Aggravating
Appalling.

And that
That is why I know
When I say "I miss you"
I mean the old you
The one that was

The simple
Brown eyed girl that cried on my arm.
That sobbed when she missed me
That texted me every day
That smiled no matter what.
That promised forever.

But you know what?
You didn't mean those things.
So know this
When I said I need you
I don't mean it.

Because I have another now.
One who means what she says

I have the person who you were
And she means to stay that way

I love you
That's what it is
I've loved you
Every minute
Every second I've spent with you.

You smile
And my heart races.
You speak and
My ears are instantly listening.
I touch you
And the spark between is lights up.

My dear
I'll have you know
That minute by minute
My love for you has grown.
I'm amazed
I wish I could put this to words.
But simple words are nothing
They cannot describe how I feel.
You my love

I will love you until this world ends

I hate this feeling
Like it really doesn't matter.
I'm in love with everything
That is you.
And I'm trying so hard to be
Independent and non chalant
But I'm screaming on the inside.
Begging for you to say
"I love you more"
"I need you always"
I've got this inner turmoil.
Dread of my own being.
I want to be with you
Next to you
Touching you
Caressing and kissing you.
But I'm so far away.
God it's lonely here.
Nobody ever says that.
Love can be very lonely.
It's horrible to feel like this.
Like I'm an accessory to your life
And not the centerpiece you are
In mine.
How do I get rid of this....
This god awful feeling.
Maybe I'll never know
Just wandering through life
Hoping for an answer

One major promise broken
A thousand words unspoken.
And I thought for sure you'd see
Everything that makes up me.
I thought you would always know
That I will never ever go.
But instead you left them unsaid
The words rattling in your head.
You just couldn't face that life
With all my silly stupid strife.
You just could no longer see
Yourself happily married to me.
And I thought, no I was certain
That we could pull back the curtain.
And behind would be a sunlit window
And instead the ground is sallow.
I thought you could always look past
My failing and be my last
Girlfriend, lover, and honey.
The one I would spend all my money
On. The lovely lady of my world
And now my heart has been hurled
Into nothingness
Left to wander the abyss.
And you don't seem hurt at all
Like you never had this fall.
Like you knew this would happen
You seem to have been mapping
Your way right out of my life
And it's cutting my heart like a knife.
You know I've loved you always
Through all the **** and fall aways.
And it's a terrible knot
Like being punched and shot
That you could give up so casually
And forget our love so actually.
I thought I would spend a lifetime
Showing you you were all mine.
And instead you've run and hid
Shut the door and closed the lid.
I tried so hard for you dear
And I guess I never came near
The man you needed me to be
So now I have to let you go free.
Make no mistake I will cry a lot and
Already have. Staring at my hand
And wishing my ring finger could
Bear the ring I thought that it would.
Instead it lays bear and unknown
That I had plans to go down
To my grave with your love in my
Heart every single day letting you fly
Away from me is so terribly hard.
Smashing my heart to the last shard.
God I thought it would be amazing
To marry you and give you a real ring
But I guess it's not meant to be
And my heart I must keep totally free
I always thought you would love me
I guess I was wrong.