The world gave me flowers
And I crushed them with my feet
The world gave me sunshine
And I hid beneath my sheets
The world gave me laughter
And I cried myself to sleep
The world gave me air
And I filled my lungs with smoke
The world gave me water
And I consumed myself with poison
The world gave me freedom
And I enslaved myself to habits
The world gave me chances
And I threw most all away
The world gave me calm
And I turned my life to chaos
The world showed me comfort
And I feared it weren’t true
The world offered me forgiveness
And I am eternally grateful for its gifts

I've been at the spa
Tear facials, puffy eyes and nasal
Sighs in the steam.

I've been at the spa
Naked and wasted
Slowly rehabilitating myself.

Been so long
Since I've had a fix
Forgot what it's like
To be in your eclipse.

Been too long
Since I've had a kiss
Scared what it's like
To be saturated in bliss.

I've been at the spa
Suffocating and pruning,
To stop myself from swooning.

I've been at the spa
Dehydrated, not elated.
(Am I supposed to be relaxing?)