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2.3k · Jul 2017
Who am I
Anonymous Jul 2017
Standing in a mirror trying to change myself image
Living with the guilt that daddy couldn't
Finish
Every blow to the brain was a reminder
My momma fell in love
With a coward  
Scared to admit he was broken
From lies that his mother
Created
His image was of the man
That she hated
So you killed my pride and shot my
Mind and killed my soul
And Burried me alive
But killing me is killing
Yourself
But in the end
Im a reflecting of your past and present
lyrical Monster
Let the ink flood
and open
The wounds to heaven
GATES
Let the angels guide my
Thoughts and provide my voice
Cause I'm living to die
With out a voice
But the question is are you
Really living
A lie
Or living
To die
So open your eyes and answer my question
Who am I??


XoXo Lost Black Girl
1.9k · May 2018
...Disaster...
Anonymous May 2018
He often asked me if I believed in love
I often answered if love believed me
see he was willing to fix the flame
that no longer burnt when the sun left on rainy days
he saw the flaws that I let escape
I saw the love that he yarned to give  
so I soaked my heart in his treasures
never fully understanding the meaning to
Love
So who the **** was he kidding?
Thinking  I could be open to love
Let’s reminisce
my heart was done when josh burnt his bridges
maybe when jose told me he never viewed me as
His Women
or maybe when I laid beside a man who never called me
He
told me he loved me
just to undress me
only to finesse me
just to say he sexed me
In mind he next me just to move on to the next me
you know the shy girl with the heart of gold
often eager to please that she misleads
in ends up
on a broken rode
So I often asked could he see his self loving
after his heart was left in a
disaster?
He just said
Disaster aren’t final destinations
738 · Aug 2019
Seasons
Anonymous Aug 2019
In time all wounds heal
Winter turns to summer
And summer to fall
I’m just magically waiting for you to call
706 · Jul 2017
Designer Queen
Anonymous Jul 2017
Designer frames and Advil
Overly expensive heels
Long trench coats
Still can't hide what I feel
Overly done makeup
Exspensive weaves
Telling my self if I feel
Pretty maybe
I'll believe
But yet when I'm standing in the mirror
I'm naked
Looking at my self I hate my reflection
Less thinking more heavy drinking

So I'm sending blank texts hoping they could hear my silence
I'm broken but I'm drowning in high end designer
Room full of labels
That can't fix
My problems

Signed That Black woman addicted
To retail
No therapy just me and retail
526 · Jul 2017
Bittersweet
Anonymous Jul 2017
love me now like you did before
Hold me tight and never let me go
Is the words that replay at 5:00AM
When I'm walking out the door
I took your heart and I broke it
Destroying love
Sabotaging feelings
Just to be alone
And cry myself a sleep
This is what you call Bittersweet
Heartbroken
442 · Aug 2017
Mask off
Anonymous Aug 2017
Unhappy
Hurt
Ugly
Ashame
Broken
Is what my mask was made from
My mask was designed to hide lies
To smother sounds of fear as I cry
broken dreams from a world made of lies
Covered mirrors that expose my true reflection of my deep imperfections
The tears Cascade from my eyes
You can never say you know me if you never heard the Shriek that pours from heart while I lay asleep Mask off is the real me Mask on Is the finest Cashmere you can see
So Mask Off
Lights on
Is what I scream
Just love me
Cause behind this mask is the real me
Society lives behind a mask to cover our flaws and short comings so we create a image that's perfect to hide our true flaws
405 · Jul 2017
The Curse I Was Born With
Anonymous Jul 2017
What's cursed Being Born With a dark Skin, Or being born with a label being judged before I speak or blank stares as if I'm disabled society places my kind in different times they say we was giving a chance to redeem our selves and SHINE  But I'm a prisoner Living in hell Drinking from a book that  brained washed us to never Fully Excel

My Kind is  despised and Deprived beat down and left in the cold to die, Now Tell me Is it Equal or is Killing My Dark Brother what you mean by PEACEFUL, Tell me if you hear my anger as the ink sinks and destroys this paper rearrange my words and destroy my thoughts tie me down and blind me but the truth is Society has awoken the beast that lives beyond the valley

XoXo Signed The black girl that's Speaking on behalf Of every black mother in my society
396 · Nov 2017
Fuck love
Anonymous Nov 2017
Pain so far gone I can’t even sleep
Do you know what it feels like when hell keep knocking at your feet
the devil keep projecting dreams of sunny days but every time I kneel it’s rains for seven days

I admit for a second he was winning
The Pain so deep in my throat I WANNA SCREAM
but I’m afraid I mite choke or better yet be considered a joke

do you know how it feel to be surround with people presences and not feel a single essence
For them to say  they love you  and you repeat it but deep in your stomach you can’t even express the actual meaning  

yet you try and still they lie
You would think you would get it like maybe ask your self why ?
why do I fall for lies why do I  allow them to pentarate my thighs  before I give the opportunity to penetrate my mind
see if you remove the love and burn the *** what more is their left to give
what more is there to live
we just building relationships off broken knowledge
letting love defeat our only values
so ask me do I love
I mite smirk and shrug cause in my heart
ITS STILL SCREAMING  **** LOVE
Love thy self first
353 · Aug 2019
Scene 99
Anonymous Aug 2019
I just wonder when your alone
Do you think of the wrong you’ve done
Or am I just a trophy
That sits above your fireplace
On a cold winter day
Sometimes we wonder if those who’ve wronged us ever feel a need to apologize.. The truth is one can’t admit a issue if they truly believe they there self was never the issue
Anonymous Jul 2017
Standing at my own casket
Watching my mother
Cry tears that I could
Only feel
Trying to
Touch her to let her
Know I'm still here  
But she can't feel
I'm fading in the wind
Forced to watch the woman
I love cry tears of pain
Because the impact
Of my death
Paralyzed her mind
Blurred her veins

I'm lost in another facade world
HELP ME ESCAPE
The life I hated
the pain that was
Once created
The room
Of lies and tears
And shame
Now I'm
Lost in a dream I can't
Return from fighting battles
With my self fighting my self to
Survive only to keep living
With a broken LIE
shattered my soul
destroyed my ego
So I SCREAM LORD HELP ME
GIVE ME ANOTHER CHANCE
THE LIGHTS WHEN DARK AND MY Mind went  BLANK AND GOD GRANTED ME
A SECOND CHANCE
I'm living on borrowed time
To let you hear my pain
Fix your shame and guilt
So to my broken queens
FIX YOUR CROWN  

So before you
Write that letter
Before you end your
Life think
About
The pain that
Your giving to
Someone
Else
So put down the knife
Flush the pills
Pick up a pen
And write
Your life
And later down the line
YOULL NOTICE YOU
FOUGHT A GREAT
FIGHT
So before you end your life
Open
Your eyes and grab your pain and create
A right
Put down the belt
And
Save your life

XoXo
The Gift That God Saved
Killing your self to escape your pain is only creating pain in the ones you love
Not being able to share your battle wounds
And face the demons
Soon becomes a facade
So behind the smile it tells plenty of lies
But open your self and let people in let them hear your pain  your ashamed of
And one day you'll wake up and notice
No matter what's been thrown at you
You will always
Overcome it
And if no one every told
Your battle wounds are beautiful
So embrace them
I was once broken
And this poetry is a
Insight
Of what I use
To feel
311 · Jul 2017
5:30AM
Anonymous Jul 2017
Every morning you rise it's wicked sunshine
Laying next to me makes
Your manhood rise
And you brag
It's like waking up
To sleeping
Beauty
Every morning I rise
Im moisted
At the thought of you
Leaving
I'm aroused at the
thought
Of me leaving
So you slide Between my
Thighs
Heavy breathing
Two pumps As I stroke
My **** moaning loud
And screaming  
So when I say your the
Best
I'm feeding your ego
I'm starving for the truth
But I'm deprived
Staying because I love
You and leaving because I love me
So when you read this maybe
You should have ****** me
STOP
******* me
OR
caressing me
You shouldve feed me truth
Offered me knowledge
Trying to create happiness
With the person that's destroying
My ego
Unworthy Of love
So
My *** Became Good
Enough
See I was fighting you
To make you stay
But the truth is i was fighting my self
To walk away
So Goodbye ****
Boy
Please Stay Away
Loving somebody who's emotionally distance
298 · Aug 2019
Stages
Anonymous Aug 2019
First
It was
Lust
Then it was love
Followed by hate
I admit my favorite  stage was the end
When we got mad and made love to sunrise
I was gone before you could say
Goodbye
297 · Jul 2017
2002
Anonymous Jul 2017
The same lips
That kissed me
Goodnight
Where the
Same lips I
Grew to hate
Broken promises
Lies to fix
Every
Mistakes
I was
Hurt
But very silent
Still believing
In love
Gave me a
Chance to build
Courage
Now you
Finally understand
What it means to
Be
HELPLESS
Find Yourself and you'll
Find your voice
292 · Jul 2017
Farewell
Anonymous Jul 2017
Who am I
Is the question
Maybe I don't know
Who am I
Maybe I am you
the voice inside your brain
The sound of your pen
When you right his name
The sound of the door when it slams
Telling your self you'll leave again
I'm the marks on your face
The true reflection of pain
I'm your pillow that you hold
And cry tears of pain
I'm the voice of your mother
Screaming in rage

Who am I
May be I'm lost
Dreaming of a peaceful ending
Blurred lines and finish sentences
Deep thoughts and heavy *******
Laying in bed with Satan
Broken pictures of our dreams
Still holding the sheets trying to create peace
But sleeping with the devil ain't easy
Maybe I'm selfless cause if I love myself
I wouldn't be helpless is all I hear
But yet I'm still trying to figure when I'll wake up,
two punches to the brain one to my back as I see my life reflect I go back to my mother standing in the living room screaming in rage,
Looking at the blood flow from between my legs I realized I'm my mother should I get up in run but I'm scared so I grab his gun and I load it... BOOM BOOM and my pen drops  crumble paper blowing in the wind so it's ****** and  he wrote it so who am i
Is a understatement
Call me anonymous
When you let the ink dry
Tell me this isn't
HEAVY  ROTATION
So ask your self who are you
And why before
You can figure WHO AM I
Love yourself first
271 · Jul 2017
11:00AM
Anonymous Jul 2017
I heard your footsteps
My heart dropped to my guts
I pray to god to end my life
Then to go threw this stuff
The touch of your hands
Felt I was being shot
WITH A GUN
  The sound of your belt
UNBUCKLING
Felt like a life sentence in
ONE
You left me with no awards no heavy metals
To place back on the shelf
Just a destroyed book
labeled
FORGIVE YOURSELF
258 · Jul 2017
3:00 AM
Anonymous Jul 2017
I'm shattered
I'm broken
I'm lost
But outspoken
I'm afraid
But I'm willing
I'm small
But yet brilliant
The coffee shop is
My escape
Into reality
Welcome to my
Series of mix personality
253 · May 2018
שִׁגָעוֹן
Anonymous May 2018
Searching for my own purpose
Pupils full of tears
Swimming in disaster
Trying to survive life
Madness....
243 · Jul 2017
I AM EVERY WOMAN
Anonymous Jul 2017
I'm not afraid of being labeled
By what's between my legs
The true key to every desire
Is to be a woman  
That learns
HER VERY OWN POWER
226 · May 2018
Security Blanket
Anonymous May 2018
Why are you so Guarded
Is the question that replays
While I lay in bed
Guarded from lies
Guarded from loving another person
That had no purpose
In loving I
Guarded from giving love to many
Tries
He got me asking who am I ??
Just ask your self what have you done for self lately?
Anonymous May 2018
See she fell
So fast into loves trap
The idea of her and him...
Two lost souls who finally found
Each other
It was like a magical story
Inside a poem book labeled
Noir Papillon
215 · May 2018
..LEE..
Anonymous May 2018
His heart was like a game
of Russian roulette
you never know
when the end is near
213 · May 2018
six pieds
Anonymous May 2018
Buried alive
Knee deep
In my own
Expectations
Six feet
207 · Aug 2019
PINOT
Anonymous Aug 2019
He was like wine
Eager to open
But so hard to close

He left me patiently
Awaiting
For the
Intoxication
Of his Love
203 · May 2018
Past Life
Anonymous May 2018
Searching for the truth
Behind my mask
Taking these drugs to numb my past...
Tired of pretending behind
My mask
So when they ask I’ll just
Laugh..
I think I’m just running from my past
197 · May 2018
No Happy Ending
Anonymous May 2018
Life isn’t a fairytale
It’s a book some people
Write pages of your life to
Destroy your story....
Some days you write your own
To fix their story...
In life we must live we must hurt but in life we all eventually grow...
195 · May 2018
Dear Black Community
Anonymous May 2018
Crack put in our community to break
Our mothers
The penitentiary is the new form of
School raising our brothers
Fathers gone before we get a chance to say
I love yah...
The system is broken there’s no  justice for
Our skin ...
No justice inside a system designed to fail Us..
So we scream for Trayvon and walk for  
Justice
You would think we would rise and love each other but we take the same
9MM
And  **** Our  Brothers........
We  stand for justice against other  races.. we scream and holler and walk for peace . How can they respect us when we don’t promote self  peace .. we take our brothers life  and show no remorse  . Just ask your self if we stood together what would happen ?
190 · May 2018
adiós
Anonymous May 2018
You had me at hello many times
See this was my first love affair
I couldn’t tell if you
Was
Into me...
From waiting to not waiting at all
My heart moved from
Winter to fall
Covering mirrors in my room
To conceal my flaws...
I was in love with a man who wasn’t
Consistent
One minute he showed that he loved me
Then he was
Distant ..
What’s a man to gain the world but lose his
Queen
190 · Nov 2017
Time Out
Anonymous Nov 2017
I’m losing my sanity trying to forgive people that don’t Feel the need to stand with me

I’m apologizing for actions taking  the lessons and making it happen
Remaining humble and stacking my blessings dividing my profits subtracting my deception

this pain is a game either you fighting and winning or losing and staying or leaving and learning but In the end its you then it’s them so when it’s over you times your blessing and divide your imperfections and what you get is god deepest acceptance you learn your strength and that’s the greatest blessing in every ****** up lesson
188 · Aug 2019
Flat____________
Anonymous Aug 2019
Before I take my last breath
I just wanna explain
You became my favorite
Hello
My hardest goodbye
Now as my eyes
Fades slowly
Just promise
Me
Matter fact just hold me
“Cough”
I’m losing time
Not to many words I can
Respond
Just listen
As did you before
I’m fading slowly
Just tell me
You’ll love me
_BEEP__BEEP__
I was gone
175 · Aug 2019
Pleaser
Anonymous Aug 2019
Some how leaving
Became much easier then staying
But the question
Remains
WHY AM I SO EAGER TO PLEASE
Those who use my love
As a time and place
We have to stop climbing mountains for those who would never cross a puddle for us
167 · Aug 2019
My SUPERMAN
Anonymous Aug 2019
The way his soul touched me
Made sense
It was magic
It was super natural
He touched my soul
With out physically
Touching me
He pleased and teased
My body
As if I was undressed
He caresses me with the stroke
Of his
Smile
It was warm and safe
I felt at home when you held me
I felt alive like a Christmas morning
You finally gave me a
REASON TO BREATHE
A REASON
TO LET LOVE BE
JUST A REASON
TO FINALLY
SEE
THAT LOVE IS
ME!!!!


His soul was made for me and only me
But we crossed paths during a trail and error
So young and naive
Is it true if you love them set them free


Cause honestly
Just honestly
I’m lost without your sweet essence
I’m lost holding the thought of what it could be


If it’s true I’ll wait another
LIFETIME JUST TO FEEL WHAT WE HAD
IN THIS LIFE TIME
Love him while you can
162 · May 2018
No TLC
Anonymous May 2018
I never thought I could live with out you..
You made love much easier
In my eyes you where my prince
Or was I just young and naive
To stupid to see
To young to believe
That the love you and me
Built..
Could blow in flames
While I stand five inches from your grave
I thought I wouldn’t live with out you
I guess if I knew now
I would’ve moved on with out
You..
I would’ve packed your **** and never
Gave a ****
But looking at myself in the mirror
I lost me
Years of lies
Years of cries
See I let the need of love destroy
The women inside
I let your strong ego destroy my pride
i never thought love
Would amount to this
I took the match and struck a home
Run and burnt the *****
Standing in a mirror that we once shared
Watching the blood drip
On our marble floors
How dare you let a ***** compete
AGAINST ME..
I guess you got what you asked for
He’ll has no fury like a women
Scorned...
Let love die or lay down and let love try
150 · May 2018
I’m Here
Anonymous May 2018
I used to write you texts on a daily
Some how you called me crazy
I was showing you how to love me with out being lazy ...
HOLLERING AND SCREAMING
Because I give ****
Now you send texts after texts
Asking me fifty questions
About certain ex’s
Asking me  who I’m sexting
No response  just to leave you guessing
Hit reply and send a couple blank texts
I THOUGHT YOU’LL GET THE MESSAGE...
Ever blank text is a silent message ..
I hope those cries burn your lips
Cause I’m not stressing  I’m just nexting   
Sending fifty shades of blank texts ..
Cause In this life karma is every scorned
Women’s blessing....
Love isn’t promised to those who think  love means I’ll be here forever.... love is loving a person who simply has flaws
149 · May 2018
Dickmatized
Anonymous May 2018
Watching you from the corner of my
Eyes
I took you back
After many lies
Was I stupid or was I desperate
I would scream and ask you not to
Leave...
You took the keys and rode off into the
Sunset like Romeo
**** a Juliet  
I layed on the kitchen floor
Slowly watching
The door
Rehearsing the argument
And the lines Thinking about
How many times I tried
To be that women
Hold you down while
You slept around
I waited why you chased ******
I spent my whole life being a good women
Cook and clean was my only method
I even ****** you like it was my duty
I was losing my ******* mind  
Thinking This love was healthy
I should’ve left
When I heard about Britney and Lexi
Trips to Tokyo
Shopping sprees to Tiffany’s
Brand new cars made me forget
That you wasn’t ****
Man I admit that **** had a ***** gone
It was the wift of the stick
When you drove
It made a *****
Bust like a extended
Clip...
I be **** if a ***** take my ****
I’ll put a 9 to her face in finish that *****
So let me say before you leave can I Just get a taste... And just like that he ****** the
Pain away
Great **** always comes with heart ache and headaches
145 · Aug 2019
Love Blues
Anonymous Aug 2019
Them sad love  blues
Left me hoping
Left me
Reaching out for more
I was a addict
For his touch and his presence
Oh how I miss
Your
Sweet essence
Sometimes we have to love people beyond their  flaws... Sometimes love is just enough to keep you going
128 · Aug 2019
Blank
Anonymous Aug 2019
I’m alone inside a white room
With black lines
And a marble cover
Trapped between the pages with soiled ink splatters
And words that many may never see
I’m the truth and the truth is me
I’m the master of my own craft
I’m the black sheep
I’m the prime member
I’m the only ***** that could create absolutely
NOTHING FROM SOMETHING
Turn my words to your favorite plaque
And plaster me across your vision board
Cause this is a introduction of a mass production of absolutely
NOTHING
124 · Aug 2019
...
Anonymous Aug 2019
...
She was a lion inside the bedroom
The way she burned the flame of Ecstasy
115 · Aug 2019
Crystal Glass
Anonymous Aug 2019
She was ruff around the edges
Sometimes she was uptight
A little high maintenance
But still she shined bright...
94 · Aug 2019
XxX
Anonymous Aug 2019
***
Mirror mirror
On the wall
Please protect me
When I fall

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