you're narrower & taller
but
you're smile's not smaller

just
hearing

your
voice

over
the telephone

made me
smile like an idiot

how
can a person be
as pure
as sweet
as kind
as humble
as you?

and by itself
my gaze
always
found its way
back to you

as if
it was
magically
drawn to you

i shouldn't be jealous
i really shouldn't

but there
seems to be
a tiny part
in me
that just won't
understand that

i met
someone new

someone kind
and funny

and i was
wondering
if
maybe
my heart
starts moving on

oh, i wonder

did my
birthday wishes
make you
smile?

why the heck
am i
smiling
that hard
when
i see
a notification
from
you?

i build myself
a dream world
just to be
with you

and i like this
version of us
so much more

that i sometimes
forget that it's
not real



that we're not
together

that you don't
love me

that it's just me and my
imagintaion

are you just
an extrovert

or do you

try to get
my attention?

i just
want you
to
like me

the way
i like you

you have

no idea

what your laugh

does to me

how do i explain
what
you make me
feel?

i know
that i shouldn't
daydream that much

about you
about us
about what we could be

but
i can't help myself

it's like a drug, isn't it?

to daydream
about this one person

to daydream
about the future you could have

to daydream
without considering
that you can't have that

it's a drug, isn't it?

did my brain
trick me
or
did your eyes
find me
the moment
i entered the room?

her green eyes
and
her wide smile
are
chasing me

green eyes
are the last thing
i see
before
they meet me
again
in my dreams

i was staring
trough the screen
into your eyes

as i whispered
into the dark

"what's the deal
with you?"

and i waited
for an answer

in vain

it's funny, isn't it?
how our heart always wants
something
it can't have.

that we do
stupid things
when we're in love.

how much you can
miss a person
who isn't even yours.

how we're scared about
losing someone
who isn't even ours.

it's funny, isn't it?

i always hope
it is
your name
that pops up
on my screen

i tried to
memorize everything
about you
not knowing when
i would see you
again

but

the only thing
i remember
is the look
in your green eyes

who is
the lucky one
who won
your heart?

i guess
i am just
a sucker
for hopeless
romances

how is it
that you
just don't see
what i feel
for you?

what should be
will come
and if
it doesn't come
then it just shouln't be

but in my heart
i still hope
that
someday
there will be
shared feelings
between us

the stranger
whom i only
knew by name

got more
and more
interesting

with every
passing by
with every
eye contact

i am not
going to
lie

i tried
to find
your socials

but it's like
you don't
even exist

my mind
is foggy
and drunken

but

somehow
it still
found its way
through
to you

my mind
keeps running
running away
from the idea
of an us

but my heart
keeps coming back
whispering
what if...?

in my head
i know what to say

but then
i sit next to you
or
look into your eyes

and the words
won't come out
of my mouth.

i'm speechless.

your green eyes
were fixed
on the screen

and you
were listening
to your favorite songs


my brown eyes
tried to
catch yours

and i were
listening absently
to my friends
and the song
that reminds me
of you

your green eyes
met
my brown eyes

and whilst you
never broke
the eye contact
i did

but i
was always
the first
to look again

the older
the night became

the more
my thoughts swirl

the more often
they found their way
back to you

i am
listening to
my favorite songs

and you
sneak again
into my thoughts

and maybe

you are
listening to
your favorite songs
too

but i am sure
that i never
sneak into
your thoughts

were you
just bored
or
did you
really want to
talk with me?

already
a bit drunken
i found you

and with
your green eyes
your honest smile
combined with
the small distance
between us
and your smell

you intoxicated me
even more

tell me

who crosses
your mind
when you are
laying awake
listening to
your favorite songs?

whose smile
flashes before
your eyes?

and
whose eyes
meet you
in your dreams?

i should have
listened
to what
the professor
was saying

i should have
watched
what he
was showing us

but instead

i listened to you
to the little rhythm
you played
on the drums

and i watched
the way
your hands
danced
over them

i was
mesmerized
by your movements

the way
your hands
danced over
the drums

the way
your face
lightened up
when you played
the rhythm right

the way
you groaned
when you didn't

the way
you laughed
at the same time
with us

i want to know
all the thoughts
that rob your sleep
when you go to bed

i want to know
what you wish
you'd done better
in the past

i want to know
what you see
when you think
about your future

i want to know
all the fears
that lame you

i want to know
what makes you human

and out of
the nowhere
my stomach tingles
when i
think about you

i was sitting there
drunken and
deep minded

with her
in the cold wind
talking
about everything
and nothing

and even though
i enjoyed
talking with her
i still wish
it was you

you put me
under your spell
with

the way
your eyes smile
whilst
your mouth
is hanging
a bit open
in concentration

the way
your laugh
brightens up
your eyes

the way
you look
over the drums
towards me

the way
you are you

i always
go to bed
hoping
that i dream

cause in my dreams
it is you
i meet

cause in my dreams
i can live
what i imagine

cause in my dreams
you feel
the same way
i do

so when i
wake up
i am disappointed
that my dream
had to end

i always
look forward
to tuesday

cause on tuesdays
i am able to
see you
for an whole hour
instead
of just
catching glances
at you

seeing you
in the
early morning
always
makes me grateful
that i
stood up

it is
so much easier
to talk
to him

since
i don't care
anymore
if he feels
something
for me

why
do i
always
fall for
the taken ones?

my feelings
are not
that strong
anymore

but, well...

let's see
what changes
when
i see you
again