Shivers down my spine
Straight to my core
Darkness surrounds me like a blanket of smoke
sigh
Two glimpses of light
One to my left
Another close to my right
One is safety, the other... death
A few breaths is my time to choose
sigh
No signs, no clues
Which way to go?
The right is closer
No... Too easy
The left is brighter
sigh
Don't wanna think, don't wanna be
Never ending choices in time
Half a second
Time to decide
Take a deep breath
sigh
Closing my eyes
Welcoming death
I walk straight into the night
Turning left, then right
Turning all around
Eyes closed, in my mind, out of sight
sigh
My turn to die

What is true love?
Is it a spark or a light,
Does it show at first sight?
Does it come from above?

Do you know when it's here,
Does it hit like electricity?
Can you choose who it will be?
Does it always shed a tear?

Can you call it fate,
Or is it an accident?
If it just came and went,
Would it still be great?

If you let it go,
Does it always come back?
If it doesn't stay on track,
Do you still let it show?

If you can't express it,
Is it still there?
If it doesn't care,
Is it really worth it?

Do you throw it away,
When it isn't any good?
Even if you should,
Do you miss it everyday?

When your not sure,
Is it always on your mind?
Even when it's hard to find,
Do you always endure?

Is it always diamonds and pearls?
Do you have to stick it out,
Even without a shred of doubt?
Is it gone with the end of the world?

Is it nicknames, like *** and baby?
To be called a husband or wife,
Is it all you need from life?
Or does it just make you crazy?

Is true love always your best friend?
Even when you're far apart,
Do you feel it in your heart?
Does it always last till the end?

She comes to me
bleeding inside
from a thousand
individual scars
with pleading eyes
self contained
She speaks in gentle
refrains

"I don't know where
I'm going
I don't know who
I've become
I go through the motions
deaf, blind and dumb
I dance on cue
I stand in line
I've tried to be so
good.
I've left behind the darkness
I've forgiven the past
I'm far too aware of time
It doesn't matter really I don't mind
I wish I could tell
you what I find

The struggle between
my internal world
condemnation
irritability
judgement
fears
heartaches there, vile rages, petty hatreds
*** dancing on the head of a
pin
exquisite laughter
it's all there.

While my behavior is quite the
opposite
accommodating, loving, compassionate
flirtatious, curious
connection is my goal

When I'm alone I'm lonely
when together suffocated
the best distance is
from here to there

I wish I could tell
you that I mind

The storms still
come and go
luck rides the
tides
each day the
sunrise

This human stuff
is all too real
it creeps up on you
so you don't know
how you feel

Which is why I've
come to you to
speak my mind
they say you are the
complaint department
the garbage collector

I'm bleeding inside
from a thousand scars
that's not to say I really mind."

They say the healer
must heal themselves
so of course I ask
"How can I help you?"

Hard to swallow
Harder to digest
This ****** Biblical
****** contest.
In the blue corner
God and his beard
In the red corner
The beast most feared

Let's count the death toll as delivered by the "Good Book"

Good aka God

Two million, four hundred and seventy six thousand,
six hundred and thirty three

(plus the incalculable deaths caused by mass floods and plague etc.)

versus

Evil aka Satan

Ten

(all ten in cooperation with/ at the order of God)

Who should you run to?
From who should you flee?
Is reading these words
a punishable act of blasphemy?
If so, strike me down now
before I kick start a revolt.
Or please show me sign, by...
lighting my HP lightning bolt!

Three wise monkeys from far away
in the mystical ancient east
Their simple message misunderstood
so that the west can gorge and feast.
~~
Mizaru "See no evil"
~~
Meaning precisely just that
to not repeatedly look upon ill deed
Not to "turn the blind eye" of indifference
As the many starve whilst others feed

Simply, the more evil that you see
the less empathetic you become.
Constant destruction in the news
normalises genocide till we are numb
~~
Kikazaru "Hear no evil"
~~
Just like Mizaru, Kikazaru
tries to absorb less evil news.
Refusing to listen to the screams
He retains his compassionate views.

Understanding that overconsumption
of evil, violence and negativity
turns the purest warm heart cold
and breeds dark insensitivity.
~~
Iwazaru "Speak no evil"
~~
Differing from the previous two monkeys
speaking no evil is a consequence
of not seeing and hearing wickedness
delivering this providence

For if vile behaviour is consumed
through your sight and, or sound
That evil inside must be expelled
It can't be just buried or drowned
~~
Note how the news desensitises you
and how violence is sold to your kids
Remember The Three Wise Monkeys
and consider what each one forbids.