Submit your work, meet writers and drop the ads. Become a member
 
499 · Jan 2020
Anxiety
Phoenix Jan 2020
The crashing feeling
The stress inducing
The nauseating
The heart racing

Feeling

Constant fear
Constant feelings of doubt
The feeling that something bad
Is going to happen
I wish for no more
Stress
Nausea
          
I wish for no more    
  Anxiety
This was written exactly a year ago, I’m kinda better now
Phoenix Jan 2020
all the noises echoing around me,
the sounds getting stuck
bouncing around inside my skull,
the feet tapping
those pens dropping
that page turning
my mind as clear as a blizzard day,
hearing every little creek,
over and over,
higher and higher,
faster and faster,
my brain never stops,
these sounds can’t escape,
nobody can see it, but…

…the silence has never been so loud
my anxiety gets triggered when I hear as small as tapping a pen on the table to as big as clapping/applause. This is my daily struggle at school.
341 · Oct 2018
Fancy
Phoenix Oct 2018
Once when I was little, I had to go to a nicer place and I needed something “fancy”
…Fancy…
What is fancy? Is it a dress with a bow or a suit with a tie…
Is fancy a stereotype of gender or is it just clothing…
Is fancy a GIRL in a dress and a bow or is it a BOY in a suit and tie

How can I be fancy if I am not the girl in the dress or the boy in the suit
This was written when I was confused about my gender and at the time I said I was genderfluid, I’m rereleasing it( January 7th 2020) because it part of my work and I shouldn’t hide it from the public
333 · Oct 2018
I’ve though of death
Phoenix Oct 2018
When I’m not ok but I say I’m fine
I’m not
I think
If I walk into the road I would get hit and it would be over
If I slit my wrists it would be over
If I put that rope around my neck and jump it would be over
If I drank the window cleaner it would be over
If I jumped of the building it would be over
But if they ask I say I’m okay
328 · Oct 2018
Mental health problems
Phoenix Oct 2018
5 why do they look at me like that…

4… do I want to eat this week…

3… life is pointless and there’s no reason to live…I’m worthless…

1No…sorry I meant…

2…ohh what’s that points at something on someone

1 why is mental health so popular…

Why can’t it just go away
This is all the mental health problems I have and if you want to know 5 is my anxiety, 4 is my struggles with my body image, 3 is about my loneliness, 2 1/2 is about my dyslexia, 2 is about my ADHD
208 · Oct 2018
Why
Phoenix Oct 2018
Why
Why am I feel theses feelings
Why do they not care
Why do they just want to help them and not me
What’s wrong with me
Why don’t they help me
Why do they ignore me
What do they hate about me
Why
I wrote this when I was super anxious and shaking at school and some start to cry and in my state I thought that no one cared
201 · Oct 2018
Hiding
Phoenix Oct 2018
Should I keep hiding it from them
Should I not talking to them
Should I tell these secrets  
Should I try to not be so good at hiding my tears
hiding my pain
hiding my stress
hiding my thoughts
hiding me

If I could tell them all the stuff I’m hiding
I still wouldn’t
183 · Oct 2018
Like
Phoenix Oct 2018
One like
Two like
Three like
Four like

Why

One follow
Two follow
Three follow
Four follow
Why
Why does that first like turn into an addiction
Why does that first like turn into happiness
Why does that first follow turn into an addiction
Why does that first follow turn into happiness

Why when the likes stop
the follows stop
Does the sadness and hopeless fill a soul
I personal don’t like this poem as much as the other but I still think that you should show the progress you’ve made by not hiding your lesser pieces
156 · Oct 2018
not talking
Phoenix Oct 2018
Be quite
They will judge you
They don’t understand
They want you to stay silent
If you talk they won’t care
Your feeling don’t matter
just
stay
quite
This is an example of some of the thought that go through my head for time to time

— The End —