in my entire existence
i never thought that
my lungs are capable of making music
and oh dear it was so beautiful--
to *breathe--
at the same time
here, with you.
*life finally makes sense

words at most
are sign posts
never touching
what's real
minds watching
yearning to feel
and at least
the beasts
of burden
I'm sorry
i beg your pardon
i didn't mean those words
that cut to the bone
the words said in anguish
the words that you moan
love has its own language
that communicates by touch
you speak to me
you tell me so much
the words I weave
are a cry for help
please don't leave
this is what I felt
fault lines through and through
cracks in my sentences
words no longer the glue
the endless relentlessness
of thoughts
circling like sharks
they haunt
my deepest parts
the weakest heart
pumping out words
of dread
this is what I said
you said
the words that line our bed
sleeping on novels
we are apostles
of language
tell me how you manage
all your words
how do you discard them
with such ease
no gratitude
no need
your smile
sells more
empty words
than I could ever write
I'm never right
how could I be
when words are all I see
so please
use your lips
to silence my sentences
wrap your tongue
around my words
i promise you some
you've never heard.

I know that you heard a lot of promising words,
I know that for now I am a maybe,
I know the answers to the obvious questions I’d asked,
I know that you love him still for a bit
I know that I act weird in front of you
I know that you trust me
I know that you love me
I know that we want this
I know that this wont end
I know you were the right one
because every time I talked to you my heartbeat never had a doubt that I’ll keep choosing you.

How wrong it must be
For me to want you
For me to miss you
After all you did
Was break me down
And tear me to shreds

Yet after all that pain
I'd still give you
Whatever pieces are left
Of my heart
My body
And my soul

I'd give you
Everything
I have
Knowing
You'd give me
Nothing
At all

Im short really short
The smallest of them all
I remember being higher
The tallest of the tall

I was too shy at first
To even be set up for the fall
Until they came along
And gave me somebody to call

Every single heartbreak
Cuts off a few inches
Wasnt enough left for a full repair
All they could do was stitch me

Hurt too familiar
It became so persistent
Hoping that you would realize your wrong
And start to miss me

You're not around nomore
So now i hurt from a distance
You don't love me today
I wish you would be more consistent

I hate I took all the drugs
Of your hugs and your kisses
Cause now I'm all messed up
Have to get a doctor to fix me

So That's enough for me
I don't want nomore please
Numb to all the pain now
So they cut me off at the knees

Body messed up
Heart turned to stone
It don't make it no better
That I can't walk on my own