Visitors give me pleasure,
When they depart.
5/9/2024

Why not.
Not why.

I regret everything.
I regret falling in love.
I regret leaving.
I regret opening up.
I regret hurting so many.
I regret being desperate.
I regret changing.
I regret running away.
I regret staying.
I regret turning away.
I regret meaning everything.
I regret feeling unsafe.
I regret playing games.
I regret loving.
I regret caring.
I regret it all.

two become one

children are born

breath of two breaths

heart of two hearts

a unique new soul

You spoke about leaving
So often and for so long
That I didn't believe
You'd ever be gone

The same lonely walls
Sterile rooms
And dead eyes

Someone sat there
Ten years of my life in their hand
And with one finger
Decided I wasn’t worth watching

Its either me
Or everything but