Its-me-your-broken-demons92

Its-me-your-broken-demons92 Jan 2021

In your eyes I see it
You smile at the world but deep inside, I see the sadness and hurt that within you resides.

I see your soul and the truth in your eyes.
You want to give up and I know you struggle so much.

You feel hopeless at times and can't see for yourself, that your life is worth so much more than what you see in your mind. You're so beautiful you just don't see it or believe it but don't you realise that no one is perfect? Your flaws, your thoughts and everything else in between is what makes you so perfect in my eyes.

You smile at the world with the pain in your eyes but I know deep down inside there's a part of you that wants to keep fighting, to feel alive.

You don't have to say a word, I feel it when you're around, I know you want happiness and some sunshine in your life, to make the darkest clouds disappear and make you feel like there's hope but you see there's no rainbows without storms.

I can't promise you the world, but all that I know is that I'll always be with you no matter how far we go. There's no giving up on you I swear it, it's true cause in your eyes I see a soul that is pure.

#pure #soul #see #rainbows #storms #truth #smile #pain #sadness

Its-me-your-broken-demons92 Jan 2021

Fall out of love

Love hits you when you least expect it.
It comes in a moment when you're not looking or ready for it.
Meeting a stranger in a strange place, in a strange time seems like a fairy tale we've been fed as lies all our lives.

It all starts off innocently enough...
A smile here, a laugh there and a casual touch.
But that innocence doesn't always last and leads to something more.
It just depends on who wanted those moments to last longer.

Love can make you feel all sorts of things, it disillusions you to believe that everything you have with them is real. One moment in time can change everything, just a little look of the eyes can make you feel a thousand things.

Hearing the softness in their voice when they tell you how they feel, can make you catch a disease no one ever wants to feel.

The sweet words that are said that give you a feeling of bliss, soon turn to sweet lies that make you feel as if you don't exist.

Falling in love is oh so easy, the happy moments spent daydreaming of the possibilities.

But the moment those feelings burn to the ground, you finally realise it wasn't worth all the pain you've been feeling after a while inside.

Just like falling in love it hits you hard when you fall out of love, your world comes crashing down around you as ashes that you built with the person you once loved.

#love #pain #suffering #sacrifice #falling

Its-me-your-broken-demons92 Jan 2021

Put you first

This should have never started, you and I.
Got lost in all the feelings and the moments of lies.
Now all I ever know is the pain deep inside, I tore my heart open just to keep you alive.

I always put you first and forgot who I was deep down inside, drowning in the fear of letting go of what we could have had, we should never have happened and you know that I'm right. This love we had changed both of our lives.

Now I think I've learned my lesson trying to keep you by my side, I never needed you all along and lost myself in the process to make you feel loved and you're the one.

I blame myself because I knew that I deserved better but I kept falling for you and your promises of a happy life just because I wanted to feel a love that I never had.

I never thought I'd find myself again after I lost myself because of you, but now the fog has lifted in my head and I see the real you. Changes are made by the ones that want it, but you... I don't think you'll ever change yourself to be the best version of you.

Don't expect to come back again now that it's all clear and makes sense to me, I put you first because you just wanted to use me, now I know that everything that happened between us was just a way for you to cope... Because you needed my love to pick you up and make you high when you needed it most.

It all makes sense now the way you treated me... Was just a reflection of how you couldn't see, see your own worth and your ability to love yourself so you needed me the most as a lifeline to save yourself from your own insecurities.

#brokenhearted #feelings #lies #trust #always #you #lessons #reflections

Its-me-your-broken-demons92 Jan 2021

The promise ring

Do you remember that night we spent together?
Laid there on the bed holding hands and cuddling so close together?
We were looking up at the fairy lights strung up above us, twinkling in the dark like a thousand stars shining down on us.

We looked at each other with adoring eyes, felt the taste of your lips full of lies on mine.
We held each other as if we could never let go. Felt your heart beating so fast along with mine.

But I wish I knew back then that the magic wouldn't last, I held on longer than I knew I should have.

I touched your face as I looked in your eyes and you whispered I love you and I believed your sweet lie, you then took my hand by surprise and slipped a ring on my finger.

A promise you said of our future together, a future we tried to build not once or twice but three times. I took your ring and believed every word you said, how was I to know back then that every word was never meant.

I tortured myself believing that this love was true, only to realise in the end that I lost myself giving all my love to you.

Now I look at that ring and wear it around my neck in a chain, not as a reminder of you but as a sign of hope that one day I'll finally be okay and that the love I gave you was never meant for you, it was meant for me all along that one person who mattered the most and became forgotten just to love you.

#pain #love #promise #ring #hope #lost #lies

Its-me-your-broken-demons92 Jan 2021

Highs and Lows of loving you

You and I met in a dark crowded place in the dead of winter.
Just out for a good time not a bad time, meeting strangers with drinks flowing and no one was sober.
You barely said a word to me that night,
But neither of us realised it was the start of this roller-coaster ride.

Months down the line you finally got the courage, to tell me how you really feel about me.
It started off as just a harmless friendly fling, what we didn't know was if it was meant to be.

That summer we eventually got together, we were both so happy not knowing that our bridges would burn in the near future.
We started off great full of hopes and dreams of a future together but eventually the addiction of love wore off for you.

Fears and insecurities about loving me hit you, hit you so hard you didn't know what to do.
Until that night you suddenly said goodbye to me, it was then that I realised I'd hit my first low. We both moved on or it seemed like we did, until eventually you found yourself back to me again.

Second chances aren't meant to happen but my feelings for you were too strong to just let go, second time around we tried again, we both got so high from each other until we hit the ground again. We both did and said things neither of us meant and we both kept trying to forget each other as if we've never met.

We burned the bridges between us once more, until you decided you wanted to make amends again. One text was all it took for me to feel that euphoric high again, you're like a drug I'm so addicted to I just can't seem to get rid of in my veins.

Now here we are in the present time, I'm stuck in the same endless cycle of feeling the highs and lows of loving you. I want to let you go and for you to let me go because it shouldn't be this painful or complicated to feel loved by you.

I'm sorry if sometimes I'm too much for you, I guess I don't really know what love is without feeling a certain way everytime I think of you.
I know that I'm too attached to you and I can't lie because I love you but not knowing where I stand everytime with you breaks me apart inside more and more each day than you'll ever know. But for all it's worth I wouldn't say I wish I'd never met you, because you taught me that love can be amazing during the highs too.

#heartbreak #sadness #truth #strangers #ourbeginnimgandend

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