Hey gorgeous,
Whats going down?
Seems like you've fallen down,
Since the last I've been around
You speak not a sound
I can only feel your pain
when you push me down

Hey gorgeous,
Don't let them steal your thunder,
you're more than just a number
With them goddess eyes,
You give me butterflies
Others are quick to polarize your heart,
And tear your beautiful mind apart

Hey gorgeous,
I can only think back to when I felt your forehead
Cold to the touch,
I clutch on to you right hand
Holding it;
I felt hypnotized within a  depressed state.
No one was inside
You were just an empty case

Hey gorgeous,
You would think I have forgotten
The list we use to make
The reasons why we should live
And forgive ourselves for our mistakes

1. You can't control what others do
2. The world needs more beautiful people like you
3 you are in battle,
and a soldier may never surrender
4. The people you think don't care; 85% of them would **** for you
5.
Remember when we made those promises
on that cold winter day
I held your hand,
As the wind blew in your face
The sky was a cold dark gray
I said
"hey gorgeous!
Let's Make a Deal,
If I Stay Alive will you do the same?"

Sorry to victimize you with my lonely cries
Fabricate my brain under the sheets of lies  
How selfish am I
Selfish is taught,
by was selfish See's
Depression & suicide
Took me down to my knees
A man once told me-
Depression is a choice
My aching heart that feels suffocation
Before I'm able to speak my own voice
My aching heart that can't simply
Define what it means-
The guilt that destroys you
Or what it means to destroy the guilt.

I hold my walls strong,
Just like the others,
I am no more weaker than-
I am no more selfish than
Depression & suicide
Doesn't let me know that you are better than
Your not.

Love To Hate
A piercing scream
Only I can hear
The sound of a suicide attempt within my hemisphere
Windows abroad
Clawing my skin to the screams of why so serious?

Withholding aggression -
having a glass within reach
I cannot get more excitement out of the thought of throwing it at the ground of someone's feet

A single tear for the 1sec I willfully give
Pale white Feet Clashing against a white window sill
Only the depth of the world's finest pavement cracked within the ripples of my skin
Only then will this be real

Preaching to the already dead
Of how the sun rose once
The next day she never came into work
******* the very breath out of everyone's lungs

Single tears never falls
once fallen
Gripping onto nothing but the thoughts of concrete
"Why do you hate your life,
Mental health professionals ask?"

On the solid embankment of her head
lies a stretched out wire hanger
For her thoughts individually hung
The young girl who is 40 going on 13
Looks like a goddess,
Although slower than a turtle
Slurs out "I only love to hate you*..."

Sometimes I think
No way this world is this cold
I withhold my tears
And I stay on my throne
Old enough rule,
Yet still time to grow
Give me a chance,
To fit into my shadow

You say the sky's the limit
I believe higher,
Caught up in between these Saints and Liars,
Makes me believe that the devil is in fact here,
Compromise ya to leave himself at ease
My tears use to run down like the Open Sea
Used to cut myself open and see how much I bleed
Thinking disappearing would set myself free
Like Heaven Was supposed to be my destiny