I’ve hit a barrier
Between good a mediocre
A matter of writing well
And being able to produce

I know it should come from the heart
But call it heart burn
Because I’m burnt out
And can’t say the words I need

You’re rubber I’m night
My words bounce and hide away in the dark
Coming from the shadows
Snaring me like a hunter

And while I’m pulled as a bird from the sky
My doubts flood me
And I just have to ask myself
Is this the life I wanted?

Why?
The motive of a peoples
The reason we are

Why?
The driving force of history
The catalyst of the future

Why?
The question asked every day
To learn our being here

Why?
The ode to my sadness
The reason of my doubt

Why?
The key to all questions
But couldn’t unlock my heart

Why?
The question I wonder when I think about you
The question I ask as to the reason I do

Why?
My silent cry in the dark
The haunting echoes of a chamber

Why do I miss you?

Why am I the way I am
Why don’t I like my choices
Why am I so regretful in life
It’s simply my nature

It’s just the way I am
It’s just the choices I make
It’s the regrets I face
It’s simply my nature

If that’s just how you are
If those are your choices
If that’s the reason for my regrets
It’s simply your nature

If I still can’t let go
If I overthink everything I do
And keep looking at the past
I can’t stand my nature

We’ve all heard it
The ups and downs
Of life we’ve all felt them both

And life right now
Is like a boat
That’s starting to overflow

And yet with this
This simple truth
I would just like to say

This slant of life
Is going up
And tends to go your way

Do not throw out
These words I say
I mean them serve you well

Your life is short
So don’t hang on
To when you are not well

Alas it comes
My parting words
So please lend me your ear

Don’t give up hope
Don’t get so down
Your happy days are near

Mannequins
Staring blankly
Motionless
Unfeeling
Yet fearful
Scared of what comes next
As they cannot do anything
To prevent it

When i tell you I'm ok
I could be living
I could be dying

When I say I'm alright
I might be doing great
I could also be breaking down

When I'm fine
I could be happy
Or I could be crashing

But when I say I promise
I mean it

I’m searching for an answer

Looking for a solution within
Every touch
Every breath

Asking questions I know I'll never answer
Or you
Alone

I don't know why
I don't know what makes this
I'm lost

Cement pulling me down
Drowning me in the vastness of the void
No choice but to watch the world disappear
Fading
No Answer
Black

gone.