Why am I the way I am
Why don’t I like my choices
Why am I so regretful in life
It’s simply my nature

It’s just the way I am
It’s just the choices I make
It’s the regrets I face
It’s simply my nature

If that’s just how you are
If those are your choices
If that’s the reason for my regrets
It’s simply your nature

If I still can’t let go
If I overthink everything I do
And keep looking at the past
I can’t stand my nature

We’ve all heard it
The ups and downs
Of life we’ve all felt them both

And life right now
Is like a boat
That’s starting to overflow

And yet with this
This simple truth
I would just like to say

This slant of life
Is going up
And tends to go your way

Do not throw out
These words I say
I mean them serve you well

Your life is short
So don’t hang on
To when you are not well

Alas it comes
My parting words
So please lend me your ear

Don’t give up hope
Don’t get so down
Your happy days are near

Mannequins
Staring blankly
Motionless
Unfeeling
Yet fearful
Scared of what comes next
As they cannot do anything
To prevent it

When i tell you I'm ok
I could be living
I could be dying

When I say I'm alright
I might be doing great
I could also be breaking down

When I'm fine
I could be happy
Or I could be crashing

But when I say I promise
I mean it

I’m searching for an answer

Looking for a solution within
Every touch
Every breath

Asking questions I know I'll never answer
Or you
Alone

I don't know why
I don't know what makes this
I'm lost

Cement pulling me down
Drowning me in the vastness of the void
No choice but to watch the world disappear
Fading
No Answer
Black

gone.

You’ve given me hope
Not in the sense I imagined
But  none the less

I feel a sense of calm
Burning in my mind
Taking contol
Taking me away from myself

You give me hope
Your given me dreams
I know what I desire
I know what my heart says is true

You’ve shown me your light
You’ve shown me my life
I brought my own emotions out of my head

I can tell what I want
I know what I need
It’s not what I imagined but it’s here

The answer lies in the next step of our lives
And yet at the start
Keeping me glued together
Yet pulled apart

Why do I feel this way
Oh help me through this hell
You have brought me heaven

I am whole alone yet still broken without the pieces of my brain