We
     the leaves
     the snow
     the rain flow
We all
     fall

I am a failure till next success.

Do some trees
I wonder
Get overcome
And choked out
By the leaves
They shed
In windless
Forests?

She said "I'm falling in love."

I said "I'm falling apart."

If I were to confess,
Which I won’t,
I would apologize.
If I were to tell you,
The words burning on my lips,
Which I refuse to do,
I would say
That I’m sorry
For not giving you my best.
If I were to speak the truth,
Which I’ve never done,
I’d get quite close,
To your blooming cheeks
And whisper to you,
“I was wrong.”
I would watch your lips
As you ask me your question.
I would say, rather softly,
“I was afraid.”
I would gently take your hand
And lace our fingers together
One last time
And I would speak,
“But I lost you anyway.”

I took one pill to strengthen my body
But pain breaks it slowly.
I took two pills to forget
But pain makes me regret.
I took all the pills
And pain never died at all.

If I think too hard

I can still feel their hands on my body
Four of them rubbing and squeezing and grabbing my skin
Desperate for my oblivious being.

If I think too hard

I can still feel the scratch of his stubble
As his skin rubs mine
And the other caresses me
Taking away my control.

If I think too hard

The world still spins
I can hear the moaning
And the distant sounds of nature
Outside of our tent, but so far away from my reality.

If I think too hard

I can hear their comments of praise
To each other
As I lay there blind drunk
And they do with me what they please


If I think too hard

I try desperately to shield the memory,
The three of us entangled
And together,
A trio of drunken disgrace.

If I think too hard

I cringe and cry
And my legs clamp shut
Disgusted at my stolen consciousness
And forever violated by my memory.

If I think too hard

I hate myself for what happened
I hate him for being drunk
And I hate the other for being selfish,
Breaking my heart and my trust

you locked eyes with them as they walked past
only a few seconds and the seconds went fast
but your path and theirs crossed at the exact same moment
and they'll go on their way to live their own life and you have no idea what that might be
you'll probably never see them again
but you shared that one moment with them
So smile at the stranger in the street, the stranger you almost got to meet