Hello Daisies

Hello Daisies Dec 2018

Royalty

Oh royalty that you are
Let me bow down before the
I doth not deserve to be in thy presence

You have made it be known
From all that you've shown
That you are a mighty one
While i am not but dumb

Oh my king let me apologize
For i have disgraced you
My sight has tarnished your eyes

I am so low
It must show
When others see you
I must look as a ***** shoe

Thy queen is smart and wealthy
I am but a weakminded ignorant imbecile
I'm astonished I even knew of such big words

You couldn't be more right
Everything you say is so bright
Thanks for showing me
How truly pathetic i must be

A lot of people patronize me and I'm sick of it

#sarcasm #royalty #anger #annoyed #emotional

Hello Daisies Dec 2018

Swing

Swing sweet child
Glisten in the sun
Laughter echoes
Darkness glooms

Swing faster child
Clouds form above
Ominous air releases
Rain strikes down

Hold tight sweetie
Childrens tears drop
Abadoned swings stop
Dirt soars over

Swing higher darling
Worried mothers scream
Chills pierce skin
Footprints fast away

Never stop

Ok I'll go get some rest now and try to calm down my mind

#darkyouthstreesfearanxietydepressionlostdarknessfailingsymbalism

Hello Daisies Dec 2018

Open wounds

Sitting here i ponder
A poem to write with wonder
But the open wounds call my name
I pick them open and let the blood drain

Once i pick there's no going back
I'll keep going until i have an anxiety attack
It gives me sick pleasure to feel the pain
open wounds are everywhere
i cannot restrain

I want to heal to grow past this
my flesh it calls for the sadistic bliss
scars they harden into my skin
I know I'm no good I let them win

Nothing can stop this eternal hell
like a red ocean into which
i fell

This one was about my anxiety and my issie with picking at my skin

#anxiety #ocd #disorderdepressionpanicbipolarsick

Hello Daisies Dec 2018

Hurts

I woke up at 4am crying
I do not know why
I've been screaming all along
There is no meaning!!
It hurts
It hurts
Oh god it always hurts

Sing it with me boys and girls
Everyone sing
It hurts
It hurts
Oh god it hurts

that's all i can ever write
it never ends
Everyday i breathe
im so tired of not being me

I want to be deep
saying something that matters
all that rings in my head
Is the pain
Becuase it hurts
It hurts
Oh god it hurts

How pathetic
I claim to be a poet
Yet write the same ****
About my loneliness
And misery
I want some chivarly
Stop crying now

Everyone knows it hurts
Write something useful
Soemthing with beauty
No one wants to hear of the cruelty
About how much it hurts
It hurts
Oh god it hurts

Im still crying

Im posting too much today but my mind will not calm down since i woke up

#pain #saddepression #anxiety #worry #tears #crying

Hello Daisies Dec 2018

Bleeding

Bleeding:

Thickens
Boils
Spills
*****
Messy

The bleeding will not cease
The green in my eyes are not peace
The adventure is a lie
I take the noose and tie

Bleeding:

Emotional
Pours
Loves
Hates
Desperate

The heart cries out for affection
My mind ceases into detention
I want him to love me
I'll take the price and pay the fee

Bleeding:

Living
Broke
Open
Afraid
Bleeding

I
Am
Bleeding

I wrote this a long time ago too and Hoenstly i realize the stuff ive been writong as of late isnt great like i lost my edge almsot like i forgot how to write? I think it's becauae im forcing myself to write because i don't wamt to not do it but im uninspired so it turns out so bad

#stress #anxiety #abuse #depression #dark #bleeding

Hello Daisies Dec 2018

Good girl

I'm not your good girl
I'm not your angel
I'm not the innocent bliss you want

I'm the mess of the world
Im the party girl people judge
Im the **** you're ashamed of

I'm not who you think
I'm not what you wanna see
I'm not this prairie girl

I want to be me
I want to do bad things
I want to be a *****

Why won't you let me be
Me

I wrote this a while ago and forgot to post this is something i feel deeply still. Amd something i hate that people think of me ir how they judge me
Also wrote this when i was actually inspired

#innocent #personality #anger #***** #sad #confused #lost #woman #feminsim #life