The sad part is
I think I was right
No one stays
In those dark nights
In those times
Im
All
Alone
And I will be
All
Alone
And that's how it is
I just have to deal
I want this wound
To just finally heal
But every time
I open myself up
They just seem to leave
And so again
Im
Alone
That's just how it goes
But no worries
I've learned to enjoy it
I
Actually
Like
Being
Alone

Your eyes tell a story
And I just want to listen
But the way your lips are moving
It's making everything confusing
Your eyes are screaming
There must be so much pain
But the smile that's always on those lips
Makes it hard to hear but when they slip
I can listen well
And I can hear the words your lips never tell
I can see in your eyes
And I think I'm beginning to realize
Who you really are
Its not all that hard
You just have to shut your ears
And spot out the lies
You paint for everyone to see
And just look at your eyes
Which have meant so much to me
And slowly I see
Who you really are
And I don't know the full picture
And I can't pretend to know you well
But its not like
That isn't the intention
But I want to get past
This constant mask
And see into your eyes
And have your lips and eyes match
And be able to tell when they don't

I stand alone in the crowd
The only one who won’t go out
All alone in a wave
Of these people who only crave
To hear what puts on the fake smiles
And none of them go many miles
Before they realize
That dead gaze in their eyes
But they don’t care
They won’t give up the lies
So they bicker and fight
And I try and choose flight
But I get dragged down
I can’t breathe I begin to drown
I wake up in a cold sweat
Is this life over with yet?

What other kind              of creature could divide        
        Each different thing             into its different sides                
  With chaos versus             order, dark and light
The stark duality of         wrong and right
We even split the very        world in two
With human versus human,       we and you
But still no matter how much      we divide
Each thing has infinitely many      sides

.

'pon your voyages through my mind
mingling with memories cruel and kind,
amongst the shattered dreams that do lay
'neath darkened clouds so distant away.
Amidst the chaos of random thoughts
strands of discord forged and sought,
chasing nightmares you must flee
the ugliness deep inside of me.
Be you close or be you far,
Please think of Me,
wherever you are.




© Pagan Paul (20/03/18)