Your hate
I need that
Your emasculation
Fulfils me
Your unaccountabilty
Don't worry I'm responsible
That ***
I'm going to kiss that
That knife in my back
It's all good I can heal
Your pain and struggles
Blame it all on me

I'm being consumed
Can't breathe
I need to be alone
But scared to be lonely
What irony
I want peace; all I give is chaos
Such pathos
I want to be held
And I need to hold
But at the moment
I'm standing on my own Ten toes
My lies disguise my truth
Maybe to protect you or
Maybe to hide me,
I don't know this feeling
Such euphoria and loathsome...
Why  won't a mirror cast my reflection.

I been lied to..
My life threatened..
Time wasted.
Emotions ignored..
Manipulated into caring.
My mouth is dry
Fingers numb
Yet my heart beat is true
You are too much to bare
Despite your worth
Luckily I only gave my heart to rent.
At this moment as I lament,
I am not tormented .
Though I'm not liberated.
Only time can tell
When I can catch my breath

Personally I never knew you
But like you I had a very touched soul.
I can't say I was a fan of course, since I rooted for LeBron.
Every shot l take now I won't say "Kobe"
I will however say "For Kobe" and "GiGi"
No one should have to go the pain of losing a loved one and to lose a daughter.
The heavens weep

I admit I never had real love for you
I admit I did truly care for you
I admit I was ever so tolerant
I admit despite you narcissistic nature
I still never hated you.
I admit despite your using nature and definitions of what "love" and a "real man" is
I stayed there for you even from a distance.
I admit I see why you are alone and never found real love, sorry *** doesn't make love true no matter how good it was.
I admit I never dated anyone as pathetic as you.
I admit falling for you ,I now grew pathetic Too.
I admit  I want to learn you and you learn to me and I don't maybe we both can grow.
Can you just admit it's your fault just once.