just when i thought it was over
i realize its not
just when i thought it was over
she hugs me again
and i realize im crying.

You will forever hear the sounds.
You will forever remember those words.
and if your stuck in a dark room with all of your worst fears,
the darkness will not block out their sounds.

I stretch my eyes because i can't close my ears
i stretch them so no tears fall out
if i could close my ears like i could close my eyes
i would do it any second
because words and sounds hurt more then sights,
you'll remember things you hear more then the things you see.
I stretch my eyes hoping i stretch enough so i can get to my ears,
I stretch and stretch until my eyes fall down.

she doesn't know how much her words hurt
she shoves them down my throat
she puts my hand around my mouth so i can't spit it out
she loops around my throat
until i choke up and my thoughts turn purple.

All I can think about is what I lost.
What I lost before,
What I lost in the process,
What I will loose after.
Winning doesn't count when you're consumed by your loss.

It will never be the same.
Ill never look at it the same.
Ill never pull on the grass and dig in the dirt like i used to,
ill never sit there again,
ill never walk through it again,
even if its for the better.

waiting for my phone to light up
with a message from you
but instead i'm laying down holding a teddy bear
pretending its you,
writing a poem instead of texting you.