I hate this life so very much. The dope... Just never enough. No matter what I do. No matter where I go. I feel alone. I am unknown. There is no where's for me to roam. This drug is toxic. The chemicals hypnotic. My teeth grinding. Turned to powdered slots. As each moment passes the next, it's all just a big fuckking blur. The time has all past. And the mad hatter has finally crashed. There has never been a better time then this! Where there's nothing here that's even left. Everybody has stopped believin in what was gunna leave them next. The possibilities were never ever even really their!! So left behind. There is no more time.

Crazy, dumd, ugly

Give me another word to through in this poem

This **** describes me
This **** defines me

Don't you know?
Haven't you heard?!

Disappointing, unworthy, AND useless!?!?

           Okay....

(Schizophrenia, learning disability, drug use etc.)

**** I guess I found an excuss for almost every defining, outlining, "description" about me!!!

Can't sleep
Can't think
Numb to this sick place
      ....Sereal....
Feeling as if im unreal
Why can't I just deal
         
           ****!!!

Maybe today you'll realize nothing is make believe....
      Why can't I just get up and ******* leave?!

These thought's keep me hellbound

Can't sleep
Can't think
But yet another day arises
Yesterday just like today
Today just like tomorrow
So it goes.....

Hope gone
Distortion strives to stay alive...
   Success!!!

Unclear
Days blend
Dead?
Alive?
Still here
Numb

When will this madness bend into "REALITY"

I'm stuck inside my brain
     This prison
            Is
  INSANITY

When I decide to leave this ******* tragedy all this fantasy will melt away to SANITY!

You can't even compare to my mother ******* MENTALITY!!!

This story was never meant to began

Self pity

Self destruction

The need for love

So much hate and anger

GO AWAY!!
"Please make it stop!" I yell.

Is now the time to say THE END

YES!

Now... Lay your head down
Close your eyes
This story has ended...

Not just the chapter any longer

THE STORY...

All the time is lost & all the words we said are now just meaningless whispers....

There is no end to this madness that I, that you, that we have manifested in only our minds to be real
ONLY ARE MINDS!
Any longer

Our souls intertwine
Twisted like that drug that used to get us spun
YES!
The one that turned this all into malicious, dark, twisted, ****** up, but unmistakable LOVE!

This lonely fidelity that we both have unknowingly made a reality is part of this crazed ambitious death kissed love

Your lips touch the glass
Paranoid crystals fill your lungs
Feeling; Surreal
Energy; Unbelievable
Fight
****
Fall
****!
When will this end?!
Hate
Pain
LOVE!
There is NO end to this madness...

I love you so much. Too much.
I want you. I need you.
There for i cannot. Will not.
Let myself have you.
I'm stuck. I'm trapped. I do not know how to get out out.
Help me. Love me. Need me. Want me. Kiss me.
Throw me up against the wall. The floor.
Throw me on the bed.
Make love to me hard and passionate.
Look me in the eyes and tell me you ******* hate me and need me!
Take to me *****.
Choke me. Slap me. Pull my hair. cut me.
You **** her. I **** him. Together. Beat them. Too death.
It turned me on.
Blood
**** me
Guts
Cut me
I touched myself.
You watched.
Your *** in my cuts.
Needle
******
Veins
Blood
Sick twisted ****** up love.
I need it
Turn me on
Use me
**** me
LOVE!
Passion like no other.
****
*****
****** up
Sick in the head
LOVE!
Stab me
Slap me
Beat me
You did it
Lay with me as the blood of the wound leaks out.
WAKE UP!
I'm dead
Get high
Needle
******
Veins
Blood
To the point of no return.
Your dead
TOGETHER.
Together we lay here.
Here in this bed.
******
LOVE
BLOOD
I love you so much. Too much.
I want you. I need you.
There for I cannot. will not.
Let myself have you.
LOVE!