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Jan 2018 Lexi

Naive

Jan 2018 Lexi

Devin

Naive

The ash heart within my chest
Lies grey and charred
Still housing the embers
Of the love that burned it alive.

I watch as pieces of my love
Flake away and shatter , on the cold grounds
Like the snow
From an all too early winter.

I forever walk
On the dark road
Traveled only by the strangers
Who share my sin
Those who share my love.

My dead heart continues to beat
In the hope that
Even though you may not love me in this world
That perhaps you will wait for me
Outside the gates of the heaven.

So that you could rebuild my heart
Piece by piece
In the great gardens of the angels
And so that I can finally share my love with you.

We could forever lay in the warmth of the sun
And forever gaze upon the afterglow of the stars.

I love you , but perhaps
I am a little too naive.

If only everyone had their happily ever afters . . .

#love #broken #depression #heart #sadness #angels #naive

Jan 2018 Lexi

The ones you don’t see...

Jan 2018 Lexi

victoria

The ones you don’t see...

We dream dark,
we dream deep,
we dream awake
whilst you sleep.

Reality is our loneliness
Our fantasy is real,
We'll take whatever we can,
just as long as we don't feel.

We live off adrenaline,
we don't know how to not,
We'll do anything it takes,
to make the emptiness stop.

There are many of us living,
but you'll never know who,
We walk, talk and smile,
just like the rest of you.

But our hearts are on fire,
And we need to feel alive,
we're the Clyde to your Bonnie
or the Bonnie to your Clyde.

We only come out at night,
Just as the darkness falls,
there is no point in fighting,
When the darkness inside us calls.

We will jump when we have to,
The stars are ours to take,
We are the writers and the artists,
We hide before you wake.

You'll find us in the shadows,
Hidden behind our dreams,
Our minds dreaming of far-away lands,
Our hearts ripped at the seams.

We are misfits, we are outlaws,
the ones that you don't trust,
But if you're lucky to be one of us,
Our friendship is a must

We can not be tamed,
And we never fall in love,
Unless we find the one,
And only then
We never give up.

Re posting as my tutor is telling me to read this at an open mic night and I’m terrified ***

Jan 2018 Lexi

Boiling over

Jan 2018 Lexi

MAG

Boiling over

my blood boiled so easily,
i snapped like a twig that had been dried out and left for termites. it’s getting worse. my fuse is shortened and the bile taste rises with a spark of anger. my face burns like a red hot iron freshly submerged into the flame. the heat travels down my back every now and then like a scorching fire. i don’t know how i snap so easily, when everything gets so warm and i just need to be dunked into the coldest water imaginable... but i didn’t expect that water to come from my eyes. the trails blazed by tears left trails of scorching down my cheeks. if only she could’ve stayed, would i have broken down as i had. would it have been a slow cooling process. the answers unknown but secretly i udder the word yes in the back of my mind. because she is always the answer to cooling me down or drying my tears. she is the only one i need. ~m.a.g.

Jan 2018 Lexi

Loving Kites

Jan 2018 Lexi

MAG

Loving Kites

"and i have never once felt this type of love. the type that lifts you so high above everything; the struggles you're facing, the neglect to yourself, the way you feel about the world and how easily you could slip out unnoticed. but you... you've built me a wonderful whimsical world where i believe that i can be just as happy as the next person, like on my lowest days i think of daisy's and not death and on my highest i can think of you so much that you are there and not just a strong aroma that i smell at the slight thought of you. you encapsulated me and brought me to a new place of a higher being and yet you haven't quite seen what i know... you are what keeps my head above water when i so desperately want to drown, you anchor me in place where i once couldn't imagine staying still, and you make my mind roam so free like a herd of wild horses running from the awful storm to the place they feel safe and that is me beside you. When i'm in your arms i know no harm can come to me, i am an untouchable object to pain and i am no friend of death, and when we part ways like Moses did the red sea a single tear will slip because once again i tip starting to slowly find my way to the waters edge where i'm surely not in my own head... i'm lost and you know just where to find me and you make it in just a nick of time before the damage is done and you bring the sun with you to dry up the puddles that have escaped my eyes, you bring the happiness i've longed for after the mere hours of being apart and yes you might call this being to dependent... but when you've been alone for so long you latch on to the one who makes you feel like you've never felt before and you hold on to that. because that's an undeniable love that i never want to fade like my washed out blue jeans, i want it to grow like the wildflowers you can find on any local road and i want it to stay like the pain did for so long, so replace the pain and come cuddle up... show me the love that makes my heart run amuck and sing in the breeze i would've once complained of being stuck..." ~m.a.g

i write a lot but i guess it’s just passion pouring out. it’s hard to stop when i start

Jan 2018 Lexi

2018

Jan 2018 Lexi

Suzanne S

2018

It is the midnight
of another year
That stole so much
from so many
And tore like rabid dogs
At our skin
And will leave us bleeding
On the asphalt
As the earth completes its race
Around the sun,
But this year I learned
What it means to be a fighter
Sweat dribbling in my eyes
Muscles screaming from the effort
Even when I have fallen to my knees
I am still here
I am a fighter because of this year
A warrior
And as the sun rises on the first dawn
Of the new year
I will raise my fists and widen my stance
I am ready.

#new #year #time #strength

Jan 2018 Lexi

Gone.

Jan 2018 Lexi

Jay Lewis

Gone.

As plain as it is to see,
I think of you,
when he's with me.
I still love you,
and it kills me.

Every single time,
I try to leave,
I hear your voice saying,
Don't you dare,
give up on me.

I tried to live as if you were by my side,
But theres only so much acting,
I can do to get by.
I've loved you through this year alone.
And I can't do it anymore on my own.

#gone #alone #death #sadness #remorse #wish #you #were #here

Jan 2018 Lexi

MMXVII

Jan 2018 Lexi

K

MMXVII

2017 was an alcohol,
that cuts through your throat,
alone or with friends.
But you still drink it, anyway.

2017 was writing my first poem
published for the world
when I thought I’ll stay silent,
words were there. Still.

2017 was the first tattoo
on my body. I loved my skin enough
that I inked & hurt it.
The irony.

2017 was ocean, sandy toes,
and tan lines.
It was the strong waves
and also the calm.

2017 was loving everyone
I love, unconditionally.
Even if I was hurt.
Even without replies.

2017 was going to the gym,
with the mindset of vanity.
Of looking good,
but not feeling good.

2017 was body image issues,
from skinny to thicc thighs,
starvation and stress eat.
It was never contentment.

2017 was cutting my hair short
when I wanted it to be long.
And I regretted it
right after.

2017 was everything except self love.
It was pain, hatred, pride & anxiety
waking me up in the middle of the night
and keeps me up all night.

I wanted to write something
without biterness & hate
but I’m sorry it turned out like this.
2017 was being sorry most of the time.

Sorry for being this way,
and being alive but ungrateful.
Sorry for sticking to my last hope,
that’s all I’ve got.

and I’m sorry, but I’m still fighting.

Dec 2017 Lexi

Smile

Dec 2017 Lexi

Luna

Smile

Don't smile because you have to
Smile because you want to

#smile