Do you know what scares me the most?
Falling deeply in love for the wrong person.
People say you'll never know until you try,
but the truth is,
you're not going to find out until it's too late.
You'll just end up having to deal with that unspeakable feeling he caused that you may never recover from in your entire existence.

Our separation still has a huge impact on my heart
Looking for you in other places but still not sure where to start

I know you’ll probably question why I’m looking for you in someone else
or why I’m trying to love someone like I love you as if your love ever left

I don’t think you realize how much an impact you made in my life
or in the many ways I wanted to start over but there was too much to sacrifice
like trying to love someone else when I’m still head over heels for you
or even trying to crown them my Queen when my heart never stopped adoring you

I’m looking for that smile in someone else but I always come up short
Looking for your comfort but fail to get that same type of support

I’m looking for your type of love in various places & I get mad when I keep losing
Travelling that same highway in a different ride but I’m not moving
Looking for your happiness in another fairytale but it ends in a nightmare
because I realize that I won’t find you anywhere else & to you, it’s not fair
to find another you in someone else when you’re one in a million, once in a lifetime
so I guess I’ll have your love back in my heart all in due time.

- Poetic Venom

"How do you let out all of your pain?" said the beautiful red-head.
"I write."
"How does that help?" asking questionably
"Do you know how when you open a coke bottle, and its shook up so its super full?..."
"Yes"
"Well, its kinda like that... You have to take it slow and let air slip one moment at a time." I say.

fire and brimstone
and a grotesque attempt
at spontaneous combustion,
words crawling out of throats
and
hands, trembling
and
body, trembling, all over
and
sheer force of memory
splitting through rationality
until a bomb deteroriates
everything we used to
love,
including myself.

I caught you inside her and you said you were trying to fill the void.
I asked, "hers, or yours?"

I can't help feeling helpless
She always been just out of reach.
Will I ever learn my lesson with her?
Tortured green eyes and a wicked smile
have left me forever vexed.
I'm left unarmed with nothing but
my hope that someday I'll get my chance
to be filled with regret or be completely
and utterly happy. For now I'll have to be
okay with being okay.

Light dances off your red dress;
I think I adore you.
But it’s never the right time,
the clock ticks and distance
drags us apart like two galaxies
helpless against the dark energy
that keep us in our place.
It only reminds me
that time is running out;
that we’re moving further apart
and never toward one another..
Oh, what I wouldn’t give to hold you
to hear your voice guide me to sleep,
to undo this dark energy between us.