Oleander Micheal Osiris

Oct 2014

Moonlight

Useless

Even with great power I feel useless
I even wind up in a mess
How can I talk so big and feel so small?
It almost like throwing a ball
We want power over others this is true
But then we feel so lonely and blue
I want to be there for you
I really do
I don't want to leave you alone
Even when I call you on the phone
Yet with all my power I am useless
Nor am I much help in a crises
I have power and don't use it
I don't even try to stay with it
Why is this a must?
Do I deserve your trust?
I don't want to be like the others
Or like a mother
I love you sis and this is true
Even if im a useless blue
So please hate me I deserve it
But don't have a fit

For a friend who know me well, for a friend I let down, and for a friend who I do not deserve. I don`t want pity nor do I wish to cause you pain.

#nothing #selfloathing #logen #nopity #neverleaving

Oct 2014

Moonlight

For Lilyth

L** is for the way you laugh
I is for your outstanding intelligent
L is for the way you Love people
Y is for being you
T is for being terrified and not caring who knows
H is for heroism because your alive today and still brave through the haters.

Your a special friend thats dear to me, never forget that, I love you sis! Always will!

#love #logen #nohate #lilyth #neverstopbeingyou

Oct 2014

Moonlight

Shedding Tears

I cry quietly
I do so silently
I hardly ever do so anymore
I don't even know who to cry for
I am tired and my strength is faded
for holding all these tears in like spades
I hate what the world has done
How it has fun
People love my tears and pain
And I cannot shed them without negative gain
Can I cry at home
Or in the sea of foam?
No, I can not cry
Nor can I fly
But I do try
So here I sit
not so fit
And for the first time in years
I can finally shed my tears

"Where only strong when we don`t cry... but never once have I wanted anything more then to do so." Monk Kashi

#tears #crying #logen #nevercancry

Oleander Micheal Osiris Oct 2014

I am Pans and Trans. Get over it

I feel the whispers of the Mistress
And the smooth hands of the Mister
The gentle embrace of the beautiful He
And the masculine lips of the handsome She
Four lovers whom fill my heart
Different genders
I shall never care
I shall never care about skin color, gender identification, or hair
Religion, region, since when did it all matter
I'll just love who I love because of their beautiful personality and wonderful attributes.
I could care less if I go to hell
I'd do it for these beautiful people
I'll kiss who I want to kiss
Hug who I want to hug
**** who I want to ****
Touch who I want to touch
I'll be as close or as much of a stranger to whoever I please
Because it is my life
Not a phony god's, not my parents', not yours
It is mine
I love the smell of her floral scented hair
I love the warm feeling of snuggling with him
I love the sweet words of she who wants to be a he
And the fun times with he who wants to be a she
All the beautiful friends, lovers, and family I have
Why can't they be free
To love who they want to
And same goes for me
I want to be able to hold and marry and kiss my future lover
Just let us love
It is not your life to control
Or to judge
Or to spectate
We are made of the same red blood as you
Eat the same food
Dress the same dress
We are all normal people like you

#lgbt #rainbow #samelove #transexual #pansexual #gayrights #legalizetrans #tastetherainbow #lovetherainbow

Oleander Micheal Osiris Oct 2014

The Tales of the Broke Down Suicide and Weeping Songs

I f l e w too close to the sun
And fell too close to the stars
I cried the tears of the moon
As I felt the loneliness of asteroids.

I hugged the never touching trees
And kissed the lonely roses
And b r e a t h e d the air for the dying grass
And sat in the laps of the evergreen vines of ivy.

I ran with the wolves
To forget the malice feeling of the cougars
And s a n g the song of freedom with the hawks
As I let the rabbits comfort me.

I walked with the preoccupied humans
As I stared at the nervous buildings
And hugged the crying street light
Then let the cold air b i t e me

I sat a l o n e in my empty room
With the joyfully stained razor blade
And with the vain and well woven noose
Jumping off the chair as I choose.

#suicide #me #cold #air #humans #lonliness #buildings #lights #noose #razors

Oct 2014

Moonlight

The light

When we die we see a light
Is it truly bright?
What of we put up a fight?
I truly have no sight!
I fear for death to come
yet I care not where it's from.
Whom shall I talk to at night
When everyone has blown out my small light
No one speaks a word
Nor do they care as long as there's a ford
Who cares if one dies?
Or even if one should lie?
No one is pure nor they light
Even if there not bright!
We put up not a single fight
When our humanity is in sight.
So here we lay our heads down low
And lose our angelic **glow

"We all need a light, some of us have it, some of us don`t. Only in our darkest hour does the light shine through our darkened lives." ~Mishu Kawikie

#love #fear #hate #alone #dark #light #youtube #logen