If you loved her back,
she would feel a thousand times better.
If you held her hand,
she would warm up in the cold weather.
If you asked her how her day went,
she would finally smile a genuine one.
If you took her in your arms,
she would hold you closer.
If you checked up on her every day,
she would never feel lonely.

If only you loved me that way.
But you never had.
So I have never experienced all those feelings
I would have felt

If only you had loved me back.

1:35 am
in the indigo infinity of the night,
i could've loved you better.

2:18 am
between the folds of the sheets
and the ache in my bones,
i warmed you from the inside out.

3:46 am
we are two stars,
unable to put our words into
constellations.
we will be our own downfalls.

4:28 am
you pull my hair and tell me
you love me in-between the groaned pants
and one day, underneath the cracked lips
and trembling hands
i'll find the courage to say it back.

5:19 am
i am the inferno that'll burn
your paper heart down
and when you're left with the ashes,
you'll see just how much of yourself
you gave to the girl with the sleepy eyes
and bruised knuckles.
i am sorry.

6:21 am
like the morning sun,
i'll rise to fill you with warmth
but i will have to set again.

7:34 am
"i can't hold your universe together."
*-H.K