The day I lost you was the day I found myself

I always thought about what it would be like
and how it would feel
in my heart
to see you again

I never knew how I wanted this moment
to unravel until I was living in it
and longed to know if your hand still fit in mine

Faces passed while I was fixated on yours
which seemed too unfamiliar to be real

The truth is,
you were a stranger
and I felt non existent

You were real and so were the festival lights
but I wasn't really there

Things seemed to move in slow motion
as my heart beat at full speed
and I felt so distant
while you were only a few steps away

Your eyes forgot who I was
when they looked at me
so I stopped hoping they would remember

I stopped hoping you would look at me
and not through me

I stopped hoping and I walked away,
away from you and away from us,
and I lost you

By Chloe Elizabeth