Broken Pieces

Broken Pieces May 2020

Waiting

I sit here and wait for my time to shine,
I wait for the day when I'm actually fine.
I'm not just some little girl anymore,
I've learned how to cope when you walked out the door.
I won't just sit and wait,
I'm going to start tempting with fate.
I will be great someday,
And I'll do it my own way.

#waiting #thoughts #depressed #stronger #life #poetry #growing #rising

Broken Pieces May 2020

Is Life Real?

Is R E A L I T Y even R E A L ?
Lately I can barely even F E E L .

                                                        I'm trying to F I N D ,
                                                        Why I've had a battle in my M I N D .

                              I watch as people L I E ,
                              Leaving the others to just sit and  C R Y .

Humans are evil, we let others  H U R T ,
And although it's not okay it makes them A L E R T .

                                                          I guess everything has a R E A S O N ,
                                                          Just like each and every S E A S O N .

                              So to answer my own question, L I F E is R E A L ,
                              And it's quite a big D E A L .

#life #depressed #done #tired #questions #unanswered #confused #reality

Broken Pieces May 2020

Worry

People will always worry,
           That doesn't make me hate it any less.
People will always worry,
                 But I don't have much of a choice I guess.
People will always worry,
                             I hate that word so, so much.
People will always worry,
                                        It just has a sour sort of touch.
People will always worry,
People will always worry,
People will always worry,
People will always worry,
                                         All because of that one night,
                                                                        When I tried to shut out the light.

#worrying #depressed #tired #done #poetry #givenup #trying

Broken Pieces May 2020

"Little"

O M E G A

I've never been little,
I'm not in any way brittle.
I hold a lot of weight between my smile,
Life to me is just one big trial.

S M A L L B E A N

No one knows what I've been through,
What I've done to get to you.
But I found out you don't want me,
I smiled even though I was drowning in a sea.
I let people manipulate me,
All because I couldn't see.

L I T T L E B E A R

So call me a little girl as much as you please,
Let the words spread like a disease.
But just know that behind this "little" smile of mine,
I'm stronger than you know, acting like I'm fine.

#poetry #sad #depressed #battle #little #donewiththis #tired

Broken Pieces May 2020

Wanting to Heal

I want to heal, I really do.
                                                             But no matter what I can't get over you.
You bring up so many fears,
                                                 Some that I've been trying to get over for years.
How could I have just let you walk in,
                                                                          I hate you and your stupid grin.
I'm really just wanting to heal,
                                                                     But then again I don't want to feel.

#healing #lonely #depressed #trying

Broken Pieces Apr 2020

Not Okay

Depression is a battle inside my  M I N D
I've been searching for years just trying to find,
A way for me to break  F R E E from it all
Cause right now I'm just scared I'll  F A L L.

I want to tell you I'm  F I N E,
But I'm beyond that line.
My friend stabbed me with a  K N I F E,
I'm not gonna L I E, I'm tired of this  L I F E.

My reflection in the mirror is a  L I E,
Because I promise you I've already begun to  D I E.
I'll tell you a little secret I hide,
On nights when the moon was high I  C R I E D.

#depressed #sad #lonely #notokay #poem

Broken Pieces Apr 2020

Poem of the Day

For a while I've been trying to write,
But when I finally have an idea it's night.
I just want to write my thoughts out,
I want to talk, I want to shout!
I want more than anything to show you I'm real,
To show you it takes a while to heal.
I wish I had the right words to say,
To tell you how it made me feel for you to walk away.
I have nothing left,
I've become very depressed.
The colors I see are dull and gray,
This is my poem of the day.

#depressed #adoption #lonely #sad