He’s real?
You say this to me with faith,
Because faith has helped me so often in life,
When darkness devoured me it was faith,
No... it was a switch which ended my night,
It wasn’t faith that saved me from death,
It was a doctor pounding on my chest,
It wasn’t faith that helped my sadness retreat,
Nor end my long endured reality I’d end in defeat,
It wasn’t faith that brought me to stand where I am,
It was me- who pulled myself into safe land,
Faith didn’t save me when I was in high tide,
It was the will in my heart to make it out alive,
It wasn’t faith that made me understand it’s okay to fear,
It was every night alone facing too many lonely tears,

So don’t tell me he’s real through faith,
It’s a made up word by people who hate,
That for once they’re wrong.
No faith helped me when I was alone.
He’s not real and it’s okay truly,
So please take your “faith” and let me be.

They’re all above me,
A pity to think that I could play with burns and not expect to ache,
I quake and break at the remembrance I’m another fake held once more by my own lies,
I want to swing with the big guys,
Brother Lee always said to stay in the stands and dance away my chance of playing one day,
Now I sit here and write with the thought of that night that I slipped my chance,
This hell oh toil and pain,
Is it not insane to think I could be a victor in the world of anger and rage,
Let me be with the best to my dying day oh brother,
The time is fading and time is not my enemy but my inevitable end,
Give me one more breath to write with my pen the words I cannot say for the knowledge it will not change the outcome of the day,
The big boys don’t need another companion to keep them alive,
They thrive off of picking on the little guys,
And that’s all the big ones will ever see of me

Hear the silence,  
It’s deafening to me,  

The wind isn’t blowing,  
Encaptured in its own insanity,  
The leaves aren’t rustling,  
For they dream to be free,  
The grass moves not,
Looking and longing at past memories,  

Hear the silence,  
It’s deafening to me,  

No child’s laughter,  
No warmth from the heart,  
Stands no other man,  
Ensnared at their start,  
No voice is from within,  
The silence has torn it apart,  

Lost the anger but also the guidance,  
Lost the enemies but also the alliance,  
Lost the will and show compliance,  
I have been consumed,  
Consumed by silence.