Ever had that time where,
You stop in the middle of a movie
Because you realize
It ain't real...

Then you close your TV
Or your book with that
Same old love story
Leaving you
with that ache,..that pain
right between your heart
as you close your eyes
tears suddenly fell by
Because all you can remember is
It ain't real...

Its never been real
It never happened
Not to me that is.

Every Disney movie
Always end in this illusion that
"They all live happily ever after"
But actually they didn't
They never did

Because life is filled with
Lies and mistakes
There's no escape to it
Or detour to avoid it
you just simply have to
endure it

Pain and despair is meant to be felt
Hiding it will only make it worse
Because piling it up, makes your load
That... much... heavier

Then one day, you'll find yourself
Hating everything around you
Text, pictures and even food
Nothing makes you happy anymore
Nothing...

But then again,
For all you know it

I ain't real

Words don’t come so easy these days,
They no longer taste of vintage wine,
Maybe I’m the last gasp of a dying breed,
Or maybe I’m a failure by design,

You ran out of patience for tomorrow,
I ran out of hope and foolish pride,
I had no more answers I could sell you,
No more places in my head to hide,

Last night I was sleeping in an airport,
Maybe I was lost inside your smile,
Come and wake me when I get there,
Call me when I’m back in style,

I won’t apologize again for leaving,
I’m only sorry if I let you down,
But after all the oceans had run dry,
There was nowhere left for me to drown,

I told you a tale of bold surrender,
You heard a story of morose decay,
I didn’t mean to lead to this conclusion,
But I wrote it all to end this way,

The words all came so easy back then,
Burning my lips like old moonshine,
But maybe I’m still the first star you see,
Or maybe I’m the future in decline.

Take a look,
A good look,
And tell me what you see...
What DO you see when you look at me?

Do you see beauty?
Do you see intelligence?
Do you see hope?
What Do you see?

Take a look at me,
I bet you don't truly see me,
The person I try not to be,
Do you see?

See the scars on my wrist,
See the brokeness of my heart,
See the fear in my eyes,
Do you see?

See the hurt that's left behind,
From years passed,
To years to come,
Look at me.

See me for who I truly am,
Because who I am...
Is a fighter,
And a warrior.

I fight everyday,
To keep from what people say,
I fight to keep myself here,
I fight to live another day.

I fight the urge to cut,
To over dose,
To drink,
To smoke.

I'm a warrior,
I have been through hell,
Breaking inside,
A little each day.

I've fought for escape,
I've fought for love,
I've fought for forgiveness,
I've fought for understanding.

So look at me,
And tell me,
What do you see?
Do you see the real me?

I will keep silent
even after hearing bad rumors
so no one could get hurt
nobody but me

I will keep silent
in the midst of your anger
so i could hear you
more than i hear myself

I will keep silent
in facing my own fears
so no amount of worry
will touch your happy cheers

I will keep silent
even in the banks of my death
so i can only feel your love
more than the pain of regret

just remember...
whenever i keep silent

I'm simply just saying...


I LOVE YOU

Close your eyes little one
Nothing will harm you now
Trust me,
Not while I'm around

As I rock you to sleep
I can hear your heart beating
Beating same time with mine

Fear not little one
I won't let you go
For I love you
More than you'll ever know

Soon you'll grow up
Enjoy the wonder of it all
Just remember, I'll always be here
Even if you fall

Breath softly little one
As I sing you a lullaby
Sending you to a land
Where there is no goodbye

...I love you

...God is always here

Sweet dreams my little one

You are Shakespeare in a world of fools,
poetry in a world of broken words and
broken feelings.

in a world full of desperate cryings
and spiteful noises,
You are the jazz instrument that
makes it quiet in my mind.

You are love in the middle of
this war i am fighting with myself.

Your lips, pure art,
You are the smile
that brings colour
in this black-and-white world.

You
a dance in a summer rain,
You
a rebel lost in a world of rules,
a free bird,
a mystery,
You
the richest wine,
that makes my dark feelings
numb.

You,
beautiful as Vincent's Starry Night,
Your eyes are two blue moons
i get lost in
You,
the one who has a shelter in my mind,
You,
the purest feet that have ever stepped on my heart.

You,
the voice that lifts me from the abyss
whenever i fall.


To be or not to be is no longer a question,
to be with You
is the only answer.