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 7d Night Owl
Lyle
a beautiful soul
carved out of pain
afraid of burdening
others with your darkness
terrified that speaking
is only attention seeking
darling, I see you
and I'm sorry I'm not there
don't peel back your skin
don't let your beauty
be rotted by sin
take that knife and toss it away
don't let the cold metal
pierce through your heart
always the therapist
the one who checks in
but darling we have failed you
who checks in on you?
pick me pick me
could never be you
but I pick you,
I do.
you have always been there
through the dark and the light
and finally I see you
I see you shining bright
you hate that it hurts
and honey I know
I wish I would have known
let us be close
let me help heal your scars
I know I've been gone
mentally at least
but honey I'm here now
talk to me please
never shut down
keep on pushing
because you have a soul
untouched by hate
you are pure
amazing
darling, its true
you are always there for others
but who is here for you?
I'm so sorry I've let you down
I'm sorry I've let you drown
don't worry about ruining anything
post everything here
you aren't a burden
we love you I swear
you are loved
and if I could hold you tight I would
One day I will
attention is divided
and its hard I know
but let me take a minute
and focus on you
you deserve it love
truly, you do
you cannot lose me
I'm here now
let yourself be loved
and please keep ranting
I won't look again
(I lied)
I love you.
i say
"im not interested
in anyone"
and
"im not wanting
a relationship, im only young.
why date during school?
i have work to do."

but the truth?

it's far from what i say
i "want".

i can't sleep anymore.
the thoughts start to consume me..
its all i think about now.

im just setting it aside as
hormones --
and going
completely
insane.

but i think i might
actually want
something
with someone.
date wrote: 14/9
very much contemplated writing this because people i know can see this. hi if you're reading this - don't mention it ever :)
 Sep 15 Night Owl
J Bjork
I am consumed by
negative spaces,
floating in between
death and the void,
looking for reason
that won't come
and there is no use
in running from darkness
when it's what brought us
here at birth
and the only thing
we part with in the dirt

If the way out is through,
why do they stay and
mock the despair
behind my eyelids?
They laugh as I search for
purpose that doesn't exist
in lieu of aliens that
I swear are real,
when reality has always been
my Achilles heel

It's a dance of avoiding gravity
until inevitability strikes
a heavy blow, that life is
random circumstance
siphoning into black holes,
a collection of moments
that we will forget to remember,
but how does one find peace
without answers?

Daylight starts peeking in
to see if I'm okay,
I disguise the sentiment
as irrelevant
when I could really use a break
from this carousel of fear
that only
wants me to want more
as if I am owed a life
that is somehow past due,
checked out by someone
who was less afraid
to step outside of their room

Sunlight omits
more concern over
reckless abandonment
as it greets my pacing force,
but there is no stopping
what was designed
without brakes,
carried by all the love and hate
that glorifies impulse to
sift through emptiness:
a sacrifice to this
blank screen
that consumes me with dread
over a deathless dream
stuck inside my head
12/24
 Sep 15 Night Owl
J Bjork
Everyone has a dream
brewing inside their head,
wishing to quash
the day-to-day
that we all have to dread:
it’s hard not to feel stuck
inside of a revolving door,
hard to escape
consumerism
that wants to make us
think we are poor

At the end of each sunset
comes another rising moon
to some it’s just
a time for sleep,
others it is an unbearable
silence, a deafening clarity
that we are truly all alone
because nobody will ever
see the way our insides tick
and form into afterthoughts,
never to begin

Still, the clock is spinning,
our minds keep spilling
thoughts we appreciate,
others we regret-
the endless war of
waging through mental states
to endure physical reality again
as we get up in the morning
with another attempt
at facing the blinding light,
the arduous day-to-day,
leaving our dream behind
that only wants to
breakthrough, and come alive
within this means to an end
09/14/25
 Sep 15 Night Owl
Jackie
the blinking cursor beckons me to write
to write
to write
to write to write to write to wri
but my mind is blank
 Sep 12 Night Owl
mysterie
i wish to see my soul.

i want to see if it's
bright
and full of colour
or dark
and miserable.

i want to stare into my soul --
just to see what's in the inside.

i wish to see my soul
date wrote: 10/9
i wanna.
Evening was in the wood, louring with storm.
A time of drought had ****** the weedy pool
And baked the channels; birds had done with song.
Thirst was a dream of fountains in the moon,
Or willow-music blown across the water
Leisurely sliding on by weir and mill.

Uneasy was the man who wandered, brooding,
His face a little whiter than the dusk.
A drone of sultry wings flicker'd in his head.
The end of sunset burning thro' the boughs
Died in a smear of red; exhausted hours
Cumber'd, and ugly sorrows hemmed him in.

He thought: 'Somewhere there's thunder,' as he strove
To shake off dread; he dared not look behind him,
But stood, the sweat of horror on his face.
He blunder'd down a path, trampling on thistles,
In sudden race to leave the ghostly trees.
And: 'Soon I'll be in open fields,' he thought,
And half remembered starlight on the meadows,
Scent of mown grass and voices of tired men,
Fading along the field-paths; home and sleep
And cool-swept upland spaces, whispering leaves,
And far off the long churring night-jar's note.

But something in the wood, trying to daunt him,
Led him confused in circles through the thicket.
He was forgetting his old wretched folly,
And freedom was his need; his throat was choking.
Barbed brambles gripped and clawed him round his legs,
And he floundered over snags and hidden stumps.
Mumbling: 'I will get out! I must get out!'
Butting and thrusting up the baffling gloom,
Pausing to listen in a space 'twixt thorns,
He peers around with peering, frantic eyes.
An evil creature in the twilight looping,
Flapped blindly in his face. Beating it off,
He screeched in terror, and straightway something clambered
Heavily from an oak, and dropped, bent double,
To shamble at him zigzag, squat and *******.
Headlong he charges down the wood, and falls
With roaring brain--agony--the snap't spark--
And blots of green and purple in his eyes.
Then the slow fingers groping on his neck,
And at his heart the strangling clasp of death.
It's three A.M. again...
The night's silence feels like a scream.
I found myself analyzing, once again.
Stress makes my skin itching
Till I let it bleed, bursting.

Disappointments from unsuccessful attempts calling,
Waking my buried feelings, making them digging
My wall that i long tried to built strong

I can feel the sun's plans to rise along
After that, perhaps i'll hear some chirping from birds' songs
And maybe then, these feelings will be gone.

I'll let myself fall into dreams-
A chance to run away from real things-
Until I find myself thinking:
It’s three A.M. again...

Every mistake I’ve made feels as heavy as they made by one hundred men
And maybe when the clock hits six,
I can finally sleep then.
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