you taught me to drive you taught me that family is most important that adventures are always there if you look you love me out in the driveway teaching me how to shoot hoops in the house eating cereal out of a mixing bowl you told me I could be whatever I wanted to be kissing mom on the forehead you tell mom beautiful things that make her smile hearing the garage door and running to give you a hug laughing and crying "if someone gives you an opportunity, take it" waking up to a knock on my door on a Sunday "I made breakfast" running at 5am and talking about life and why the earth turns eating oats on the back porch on our red chairs redbox and pizza and football getting a drink from the hose you could make the meanest tacos putting a big arm around me and saying "I sure am proud of you beautiful girl of mine" crying wishing hoping wanting wanting this back thank you I love you and miss you daddy college is hard but I will make you proud. sincerely, your little girl.
Please don't call me beautiful When I am marked by beastly scars When I have accepted the true aspect of what's real Until you have seen the true magnitude of my chaos that expresses true horror
Please don't teach me that I'm worth it When I have finally gave up on myself When I know that I'm a mishap that doesn't fit Until you have seen my perspective of this world-death
Please don't feed me lies that I'm kind-hearted When I punish myself for being who I am When I can't find a reason why I started Because I'm am swiped as an awful scam
Please don't spit in my face that I'm authentic When I know my smiles are fake When my face is stained and I just say I'm sick And I'm the only thing I hate
And please don't stuff that word acceptable into me When I know I'm a misfit for being a non-conformist And I know I can't run free When I'm under society's rule of dictatorship
But if you see my scars The emptiness of emotions in my eyes Please know I'm voyaging in a war And when I have lost, note my last *sigh
He told me his love was like a religion: his heart a god and his embrace a prayer. He told me he'd shed some light on my dim world…
He didn't know that God has never been on my side and the stars had never aligned to answer my prayers. He didn't know that I liked the mind games I played and that a love like his was one to keep distanced.