It was one of the best years
Of my short 17 year life.
I managed to drown
In the lake that was your eyes.
I managed to tumble
Down a hill into your arms.
I managed to fall
In love,
But for me it was an easy feat.
I wanted to fall in love,
And I wanted it to be with you,
But maybe love isn't so easy to come by.
Maybe I was
Drowning,
Tumbling,
And falling
Into another reality.
One where we were both happy
100% of the time.
Not just happy 30%
And angry or upset 70% of the time.
Is that love?

It so hard to breath,
when I say I want to leave....

My heart hurts so,
when I see your tears......

A life without you,
brings up my inner fears.....

Even though it's time to go,
lets make it slow.....

We've tried so many times,
which causes us to lose our minds......

If faithfulness would last,
we would never have to talk trash.....

When I look at you,
I can only see through you.....

With only a glimpse of our past,
is why I tried to make it last.....

But your actions today,
give me no reason to stay.....

Your love I hold dear,
which will only fade away.....

This is to you and to me,
to find love another way.....

You led me to the exit
My hand clasped firmly within yours
Clearing a path for us
Through the sea of bodies
As though keeping me safe
Was your only job description

You held the door for me
A gentle reminder
That chivalry is alive and well
Taking me home
Decidedly
Confidently
No trace of the mind games
I've come to expect

As the golden elevator doors closed
With each passing level
My insecurities fell away like leaves
So that when the gold melted away
And you softly asked me
If I was sure
You knew beyond a doubt
That I was

You recognized the walls I'd built
And then you set upon your task
Of knocking them down
Pinning my hands to the bed
You sampled me brick by brick
Making sure I knew
That you liked what you tasted

As I began to settle into you
You took a hammer to my flaws
Sent them scattering
Shattering years of self doubt
Imploding my elaborate castle of fears
And ever so effectively
Crumbling It to the ground

The pain of losing someone you love
may be something,
But to be betrayed by your own flesh and blood
is everything,

Nothing is as vulnerable as exposing your weaknesses
to the people you trust the most,
The people you're willing to die for and you're
proud enough to boast,

And when the time comes when it seems
that everything is lost,
You become the victim when all you've tried
to be is a host,

Your greatest strength was your
greatest downfall,
You used to answer to their every
beck and call,

I guess it all comes down to just you after all.

I wish
For my soul to not
Feel for a very long time.
My head and heart
Are so ******* tired
Of lost emotions and misplaced
Love.

I wish to turn off my soul
and all its ability to fall in love
just for a short while!
not forever!
My heart strings have been
Plucked and played with,
recklessly,
So much so that
I deeply wish to never hear it's pumps n strings profess its
Honest, unbelievable love.


This love so ****
Unbelievable,
Only my creator and savior
Knows my
Incredible passionate pain
Of loving.

I want to be done
My heart n mind.
Soo done.
I deeply wish
For a switch to turn off
For a long time.

I promise.
for this misplaced love
to never wonder off again,
I promise
to switch myself off the best I can
it will be pure hell for a short while.
But I'm exhausted from this never ending
Circle of hell
Called love.

I'm turning off now

Goodbye my old heart.

-b.v.r

A year older, a year wiser

A wisdom always in the making
Nourished by experience
Vitaminized by failures
Strengthened by aspirations
Built on the foundation of hope!

Year after year
Brick after brick
Wiser
Cemented by determination
Watered by dreams
Cracked by blows
Repaired by a mason
Working round the clock
Anointing healing!

Get up man.

You are a year older
But a year wiser

And the fruits of this wisdom
Often unseen
Oftener unknown
Ripen inside
And then no more just yours
Scatter in the surround
Beget nurseries of wisdom
Building, vitaminizing, strengthening
Repairing healing
Your foundation
Your hope!

All I can hear is the constant pounding of rain
The wind also follows suit
It just won't stop!
I hope for it to cease
I can't stomach it anymore
I must go to sleep

My sleep disturbed by the incessant whistling of the wind
There seem to be no hope of it winding-up
And the rain, ooh rain
Why won't you go away
The ground saturated and soaking wet
It just can't stomach it any more
The rivers have bust their banks
Houses flooded!
Where do they expect me to go?

They're here but their minds elsewhere
Why leave us with this pain and agony
What did my home have to do with it
My home lie in ruin from the constant interference
Syria, Afghanistan, Iraq, Libya all lay in ruin
Why should the innocent suffer

Perhaps it Karma, the spirits are getting even with us
But, should the people suffer from the poor judgement by the state
Shouldn't we be sorting our mess out and meddle in other people's affair

I just hope this dark cloud and rain will go away and with it will come a brighter future.