I watch the chatter of long time friends
The jealousy's blooming
It will never end
The thing that's always been there that refuses to let go
This ***** named jealousy is the only friend I know.

I am fragile, please place upright.
You may hit me if you'd like, yes that would feel nice.
Broken down and glued back together.
Because you don't want to say I'm gone even when I shatter.
I'm sprawled out on the floor and you clean me up.
Because I'm sharp and ragged and leave lots of cuts.
When you look in me I will break.
Because I can't stand to see all of the pain and heartache.
I'm a simile for you and your life.
And all of the bad moments and strife.
I'm sorry it's like this and I hope you can fix it.
Because I don't like seeing me crush your spirit.
Please don't give up on me... please continue to put me back together.
Because without anyone the problem will never get fixed.. ever.

For the past years, your existence didn't matter.
For the coming years, your existence will always matter.

I tripped the other day
Then fell onto my knees
As soon as my skin collided with the concrete
I knew I was in trouble
Out poured the blood, all the way down to my toes
Staining the ground and wetting my eyes

And that was how it felt when I first met you

The world keeps spinning
And it's giving me this feeling
That I've felt before.
Managing it is such a chore
But it keeps coming back.
It makes me feel like I lack
What others are born with,
And I am merely 1/5
Of what others are.
I just want to run somewhere far
From this so-called community
Where I'm chained by names like "fatty".
Sometimes I want to curl my finger
And pull the trigger
And let it go
Into the wind and blow
Away like dust
And then it would be gone, this lust
To escape this mess of a world.