I asked myself
what is your biggest fear?
I heard myself reply
my biggest fear is
to be deeply known
but not loved deeply

I DIDN’T GET SLEEP, ARE YOU SURPRISED?
MY THOUGHTS CAUSED A BIG UPRISE.
I COULDN’T DO ANYTHING BUT CRY,
WITH CONSUMING THOUGHTS OF WANTING TO DIE.
I CAN’T STAND THIS ANY LONGER,
I’M GETTING WEAKER RATHER THAN STRONGER.
THE DEMONS HAD A PARTY IN MY HEAD
WHILE I LAID HELPLESSLY IN MY BED.

“I HATE YOU, I HATE YOU,”
WELL I HATE ME TOO.

“NO ONE CAN SAVE YOU, YOU’RE TOO GONE NOW.”
SHOWS OVER, I’LL JUST TAKE A BOW.

LATELY I’VE BEEN LOST,
AND PEACE COMES AT A COST.

“ONE DAY YOU’LL BE GONE FOREVER.”
AND I THINK NOW IS BETTER THAN NEVER.

ALL I WANT IS FOR SOMEONE TO SEE ME,
WHY CAN’T YOU SEE ME?

I’M SCREAMING PLEASE,
PUT ME AT EASE.

today i am overcome with stress,
between doing homework and deciding how to dress.
my hands are shaking,
my brain is aching.
i just want to talk to you,
that's all i want to do.
we didn't talk a lot today,
but that's completely okay.
i know you don't always have time,
but i don't see that as a crime.
maybe later i'll give you a call,
if you don't mind, i don't either, not at all.

I TOLD YOU I’D BE ASLEEP BY FOUR,
BUT MY THOUGHTS HAVE SHAKEN ME TO THE CORE.
I’M SORRY BUT LATELY I HAVENT BEEN ALRIGHT
AND UNFORTUNATELY THINGS GET WORSE AT NIGHT.
IT’S AT THIS TIME I FEEL SO ALONE
AND MY ONLY ESCAPE IS BEING ON MY PHONE.
THAT MEANS NO SLEEP FOR ME
MY BRAIN WON’T ALLOW IT, DON’T YOU SEE?

MY BRAIN IS SO LOUD, IT WON’T STOP SCREAMING.
I MESSED UP TODAY, SO IT’LL KEEP ME FROM DREAMING.
“YOU ATE TOO MUCH TODAY,” IT SAID,
NOW YOU MUST SUFFER WHILE YOU LAY IN BED.

THIS SEEMS TO HAPPEN EVERY NIGHT,
AND HONESTLY IT GIVES ME QUITE A FRIGHT.
I’M TIRED, I MUST BE TRUE,
I WANT THIS TO STOP BUT I HAVE NO CLUE.
IT’S MORE THAN JUST BEING SAD,
I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS AND THEY’RE ALL BAD.
I WISH IT COULD ALL JUST STOP ONE DAY,
BUT RIGHT NOW THE DEMONS HAVE A LOT TO SAY.

HOW COULD YOU EVER FALL FOR SOMEONE LIKE ME?
YOU’LL END UP LEAVING TOO, JUST YOU WAIT AND SEE.