Don’t speak & wish me well
If you the one that gave me hell 👏🏾

Sin is too expensive
Faith is free paradise

Dear God,

So, if we are grown at a certain age…
But are considered a child of God…
Shouldn’t we stay in a child’s place???

June 23, 2021

Dear God,

How do we have all of these religions in the world.
But we have similar devil(s)???

March 13, 1950

Dear God,

The signs you are making me see, what do those exactly mean? Is this what the future would possibly look like for me if I continue down this path?

August 9, 1999

Dear God,

Out of the 10 commandments: My biggest sin is adultery.
I love ***. Especially as much as the next person, you know. But I do have it under control for the most part.
I don’t know why but these urges keep coming. Like today, the only thing that was on my mind was eating and sleeping because I didn’t get enough rest last night. As I awake, I immediately start having intense energy for ***. I am strong to say “NO” or stop myself from time to time. I have common sense not to spread my seeds around town. But it’s hard man.
I’m smart & humble.
I’m not perfect but I try.

So I’m asking you this evening to help me control my urges. Because as a man, I tend to want *** a lot; however, I am trying my hardest to control it the best way I know how.

December 25, 2008

Dear God,

Today I pray for mental health and for those who can not fight for themselves. That consistently need help on a day in/out.
It’s sad to see an individual you love go through what they go through, knowing they have to learn how to fight for themselves when they feel like they can’t. They feel like they don’t have enough will power to overcome their own situation.

April 23, 2001

Dear God,

No weapon shall prosper against me for my list:

Continue to make me stronger mentally, physically, emotionally, financially, and spiritually.

Allow my mistakes / sins to be lessons and vanish. Let my wisdom/ faith bloom for others.

Forgive me and my family as I am the head of the household, not the tail.

Grant my future wife the meaning of being “submissive”. Godly ways, not earthly flesh ways.

I need my wife to be rich in mental health, in her own goals, her gains, and pockets.
Let her cup be full of joy & wonders with mine.

Allow our children, she will have to bare, to come out healthy as she to makes a 100% full recovery.

Allow my children to lean on you Lord. Open their hearts, mind, and study your words. In the Bible, 2 Corinthians, have them “preach the word of God with sincerity and with Christ authority, knowing that God is watching.”

Let me teach my children to wear the shield of armor at all times so they may protect their self-image.

Help my children to become stable & calm under pressure when times get tough. Keep their minds focus on the prize they seek with good deeds.

No weapon shall prosper against me for my list:

October 17, 2015

Dear God,

The other day I learned that I was not ready for marriage yet. I still have a few old doors that need to be closed in order to fulfill my promise. Not many, just a handful. I need to get my finances in check, as well as receive a better job. Work on my brand so I can quit my 9-5. (Boy I can’t wait for that day.)
Secondly, I need to continue to speak with you and my partner about us moving forward together. That this is not only what we both want, but what you want from us. That you approve our marriage or not.

November 2, 1990

Dear God,

I cried joy creating these books.
Simply because now I have something to leave behind for people to read. They can revert back to knowing they weren’t the only one going through joy & pain / sunshine & rain.
Giving back to those who lost their way or forgotten why it’s important to live.
To show that when you start an idea, you keep going. You may feel the “want” to give up. However; you must remember why you wanted to start your idea in the first place.
Take passion & creativity to another level to make it exist.
That being said,
I am leaving behind a legacy of who I am.
My art work, ideas, craft, identity.
All will bare witness to this blessing.
This is my story to tell. That’s my poetry.  

May 15, 2020

Dear God,

Your presence was here today.
You spoke through an older lady, who others thought was drunk or high, at the tire shop. Simply because they didn’t understand her. But I did. She gave me money as if she knew what I was going through.
She asked me- “ I saw you when I came in. why are you here? What are you here for? You are here for a reason. You know why you’re here. Do you need anything realistic? I am financially stable. I don’t know you at all, but I love you.”
That was you speaking through her. I know it was.

P.S.- I do not remember her name. Please accept & bless her as well, for me.

Thank you for blessing me with the money in my pocket.

September 26, 2018

Dear God,

Thank you for waking me up this morning. Forgive me for my sins & unknown sins each and everyday.

June 20, 1994

Dear God,

What I find to be funny sometimes is how I’m sitting here in my bed writing about my life in my mid-20s, as if I already lived a full lifetime and was reborn again to tell another.

February 14, 1997

Now that my mind is made-up,
I can see all the fake cause I’m finally awake.
Shorty ask if we can take a break, and I told her to go cause I don’t do breaks.
It’s beneath me to love on these false Queens, to worthy to be on a chase.

Mmmm these snakes.

I’ll trump anybody for my team, no wonder they call me the legendary “Ace”.
Haters like to talk rotten out of their mouth so much, I can see why their breath stink.
Actions hit way harder than these words that it’ll puff up your face.

Lifestyle changed; paid so well, getting better & better each week, it’s a 2021 wave.
Promise myself I won’t ever turn my back on God because he been laying out the plan.
Focus on the plan
Cant switch up for fame. Yeah, mmm.
Cant switch up for fame.

Big 27, I’m getting way older
and I don’t tolerate nothing but gains.
I’m out here breaking general curse
So my family live under new traits.
And I can’t live under these *** oaths no more, time to hang up the cape.

Listen & wisdom been the key
Trying to reach the top class of the big leagues
Never is easy; be black owned by any means
Cant have any weapon prosper against me
I’m traveling away from the old days of poverty, understand what I mean?
But I gotta say, these struggles shape me to be humble as I strive for greatness with my heart on my sleeve and...

But now I gotta say,
I don’t help people who sleep on their dreams, better learn how to pick up your own weight.
It be the unnecessary “chatty talk” for me and I can’t listen to folks day-to-day constantly complain.
I’m not with the drama -Ish from the vibe people carry and I refuse to participate.

Dear God,

I’m having the best time of my life as a middle class citizen in society. And I’m only getting started. Keep the motivation going.

January 31, 1974

Dear God,

You didn’t get enough credit today. I just want to say thank you for putting up with me over the years. You’ve always been there as I’m trying to change my life around. I want to thank you for giving me time to overcome my addiction. I knew it was time to stop and I finally did. I feel amazing + I use my free time to workout or get into other projects. My mind is at ease now.
I guess time does heal all.

November 19, 2027

Dear God,

I want every single box checked off when I meet my wife. I won’t accept any fake copies of who I’m not suppose to be with in this world. Everything you have in stored for me will be precious. Because that lets me know I’m ready for the next level.
I consistently ask for this gift because I’m working on myself to get ready for that moment. I want to be ready for the good times, bad times, and struggle times. I want her to see I’m 100% committed without any doubts on both sides. I am the head, never the tail. More importantly, I want you, God,  to see my growth and be proud.

July 4, 2005

Dear God,

Continue to reveal everything to me.
Let me see what you see father
so I move accordingly to any and all doors that’s in-stored for me.

August 18, 2025

Dear God,

I don’t want to keep sinning , even though I already am

I don’t want to be greedy with money, even though I have to survive with cash.

I don’t want to chase after flesh, yet temptation is calling me.

I don’t want to hurt nobody, but society really likes to test me.

I don’t want to make anyone my idol, but my actions are similar to mimicking my favorite character on Television.

October 27, 2040

Dear God,

We always ask you to reveal people’s attentions. Then have you remove them out of our lives when we get treated wrong.
But what most of us don’t do is give ourselves time to heal nor send healing energy. We allow our emotions to run wild sometimes.

May 14, 2087

Dear God,

I been sending healing energy, giving my time away genuinely , and this mental strength you provided, through me, to others for years now.

But who’s sending healing energy for the strong? Who’s sending healing energy to me?

June 19, 2017

Dear God,

When I die
I want my day to be celebrated.
No pain, no sorrows, no regrets, no sadness.
Just a big party full of fun living, breathing, healthy people who enjoy the company of genuine people.
That I be remembered as a goofy, silly, different type of unique being that has enjoyed his time on earth.
Because I can honestly say I lived & learned in this world.
And I did it all thanks to you.

October 26, 2038

Dear God,

When is enough “enough” for you?
We (your creation) have sinned, cast stones, apologize for our actions, been forgiven, felt good, then repeated the same cycles for centuries to come.
So again I ask, when is enough “enough” for you?
Or you love us that much, hoping we’ll finally get the message.


February 14, 1989

Dear God,

I’m mad.
Sometimes I wish you would come down here & stop the madness that goes on around here. The killing, stealing, disrespect. I wish that you would stop these bad people from harming others for their own desires.

But at the same time, how can I be mad at you? You gave us free will. You gave us everything we needed and it was certain individuals own fault that caused all of these issues to occur.
It’s s not your fault that we don’t know how to behave. I guess I’m upset because I want you to do something about it.
I’m sorry. Forgive my ignorance.

Sometimes I just wish you controlled these situations.

March 9, 1988

Dear God,

I remember the day I sat down with my high school coach who’s like a father to me, tell me a story about his father sitting him down about the afterlife.
His father said, “You really don’t know what’s going to happen after death. At the end of the day one group is right, and a whole lot of people are wrong. Better hope your group right.” - then me & coach both laughed.
After I laughed, I started to really think who’s right & who’s wrong.
Because of the unknown, that’s why I have faith.

November 20, 1977

Dear Jesus,

Happy birthday once again king! I am so proud & thrilled to celebrate your day + happy to be alive to enjoy it with my own family. It’s not a day that goes by when I think about what you have done for us.
So this year, we will be thankful as our attention is on you.
Today we will sing your name
Today we will glorify your presence
Today we will honor your love

Since today’s your day,
I just have to ask…
What would you like this year for your birthday?

December 25, 2021

Dear God,

I have days where I wish I was with you in heaven. No, I’m not suicidal. I just think about you taking my soul away as I spend all eternity with you.
But then I start to think, “How selfish of me would that be when I haven’t even fulfilled my purpose on earth yet”, you know?
I haven’t tried to change my life around. Given myself time to find out who I am or what makes me, “me”. Nor realize how it would affect family / friends to see me gone in an instant.

So thank you for not taking me away just yet. I will fulfill your request. I promise

But what is my purpose?

July 8, 1974

Tonight I danced with a French girl in a parking lot under the stars.
And it was amazing!

She Salsa dance
She had those **** hips moving side-by-side
She made her ***** role & twirl around
Her body match the flow & rhythm to the Latin music playing on the radio.

Guys I’m telling you, she’s it! She’s the one

And she’s from France

Dear God,

I am the ideal of what a man look like that brings protection, connection, while sometimes respected.
I carry open flaws that are continuously worked on daily.
A good 5-figure man , half way to 6-figures, that has his own everything.
My attitude’s attitude is in check,
the power I hold is self-controlled,
never to go on a rampage.
When one sees my character, it defines what a “man” is or can be.
An example of code ethics which give gifts and sacrifices time as if it’s my duty to live for others rather than myself.

And yet, I am not the man she wants.
Not the 60% rich men who lives in a 6-figure + size house, bank account, traveling anytime as one so do please.  
Not the 60% rich men who she thinks she deserves when she has absolutely nothing to bring to the table but only her temporary looks aging through time because she claims, “she is the table”.
The 60% rich men who is an illusion because in reality, social media & society continues to trick and cloud women minds under a false promise that there’s a huge amount of rich men, when in fact only 1% are. Yet, that 1% could care less.

March 13, 2013

When people read this book.
I pray for them. For a clear open mind. With a genuine heart. They come with questions. Speak their truth. Take time to get to know you and themselves. No judgment here.
I pray they are able to see themselves for the first time in the mirror. Giving a high-5 of that inner star player right in front of them. Simply because healthcare is rich.
Nothing’s taken personal. Just understanding. Nobody being attacked. But heard. No disrespect. Just respect.
We, your creation, are here to have a conversation with you to learn more about the things you do.
So please grant us to ask questions. Not question your ability.
It is time to sit at the holy table.