"oort" poems
I'm really sick.
Like ***** is going to come out of my mouth--
an eruption of **** from my ears is due.
I've laid too long dormant
and one by one the hot spots of my petty jealousy,
indignation, and
mistrust are at boiling points:
The Ring of Fire, they call it.
Yellowstone
I'm the ********* Yellowstone caldera.
The great rim,
****** up and blister scarred,
knock-kneed from falling out of bed in nightmares,
weird from the predisposition to volcanic shittiness
(not in a romantic way)
but none the less active,
or reactive.
This vexation is as old as grinding plates.
This repulsion is as old as the poisoning of Aristotle
My head is the Spartan scythe
because I'm a new sign in an old world.
I use old signs to poison this newly dug well between us
But not well can I keep this message
banner
******* billboard to myself.
So let me just wrap the code from ear to ear,
in plain text where you can see
the cypher: **** your red dress.
You see,
those blisters are the gravity between White Dwarves
pulling at skin, and earth, and ending thrown halfway across the universe.
I knew I'd seen you before,
there at the edge of the Oort Cloud
where we tell people we just met:
I stopped eating
I was hurt once
I was ugly too
and no one was really listening.
You and the rest of our red dresses meant too little.
But still then why do you whine over the hungry, and hurt, and ugly
and spit in my face for being there at the Edge,
and for loving the thrill in listlessness,
the passion in mundanity?
And that ******** about the shallowness of victims?
You didn’t learn a thing
traveling and trusting and falling out of beds.
Your drunken honesty is your sober lack of layers.
This isn’t a far reach of space,
your torn dress and cork heels won't work here.
Don’t bring that littleness here,
you're the only one not really listening now.
Jan 11, 2015
Jan 11, 2015 at 12:25 AM UTC
sunspot
sunrise
sunshine
moonshine
i lick you off my lips like strawberry
pineapple
grape juice
a fine wine that i’ve never drunk.
asteroid belt
orion’s belt
daddy’s belt
i am opening the door a crack for you only to slam it in your face—i am
waiting for you to knock
to pound your fist against the gate
to break your hand on the wood
i am waiting for you to say that you love me
and i am waiting for myself to believe it completely
(i think you do but i am still afraid you might leave me)
((jupiter has 67 moons and i think that i might be
each and every single one of them)).
oort cloud
smoke cloud
the burning ash of my father’s lit cigar flicking onto my hands
i am awake at night and thinking about how you no longer taste like lung
mouth
kidney cancer.
my grandfather almost died of prostate cancer
my friend is dying of brain cancer
my father will probably die of liver cancer
there is not enough space in the cosmos
for all of us, is there? … God?
meteorite
meteoright
i am trying to sleep without your face in the back of my neck
hand on the back of my hand
leg tangled around the back of mine
i am trying to telepathically whisper my secrets into your ears
but the only problem is that i have not yet
mastered this form of communication—
i think that everything would be so much easier if i just didn’t feel.
Feb 5, 2015
Feb 5, 2015 at 12:19 PM UTC
I am running... into a tunnel that seems to be nothing but a galaxy of voices
Echo the stars into its shooting state, for I chose to ignore their choices
Comets have left their trace, But like an icy breath, their existence goes extinct
Cover my ears! For their twinkling whispers of constellations will never predict
The future laid aside for this black hole Dreamer. For I have disposed the old axis
The dwarfs of my outter life I have chosen to betray, I need a morphallaxis
Soften my core with an after glow ripple of silence, and open up wisdom through the coronal holes
Cover My Ears! I only listen to the language of the Solar winds. It understands my soul
My planet has enough craters... No more damage shall be done. I am the mistress of dark matter
My past and memories have been dipped in the light of a lunar eclipse, it's blood scatters
Only within a Large field of view can I recognize it's purpose. Not through men's atmosphere
Cover My Ears! I must deal with these super clusters of instincts alone. Now and Here
The Super Novas have no sensitivity to the relationship of Outer Space and Precious moments
Gravity is quick to make me stumble...So now I beg the Novas to no longer see me as an opponent
My life has been spilt into two hemispheres. Meteors shower down, destroying every Neutron Star
Cover My Ears! For only my eyes will notice the Satellite from afar
Where is my home? The milky way? The singularity of my black hole had ****** me in
Please someone! Anyone! Flare me away at the speed of light! No longer do I wish to be a captive of sin
Once blinded by the Oort cloud, But praise the Nebula's, I am now a T-Tauri of a young force and desire
Cover My Ears! Oh Zeinth! So I may focus on your celestial point of view. Your rays are my purifier.
Cover My Ears...
Jan 31, 2018
Jan 31, 2018 at 8:15 AM UTC
Where do good ideas come from?
They shrivel away from the hypnotizing light of a virtual socialite
They grow toward the sun out above the clouds
Ever-present from birth to death,
They're the latest permutations of the same explosion that started that
Fusion core up there running
Running without stopping for a billion years
Fueling the experiments of life that consciousness spontaneously manifested
Across the planets
Each a test of a different vibrational frequency
Incompatible with one another but coexistent
Mercury's barren silver mines
And the Venusian valleys
And the regal red sands of Mars
And Jupiter's infinite wisdom and so forth to the edge of the Oort Cloud
And the green and blue ecology of earth, the waterworld
Where the entire drama we've seen so far has been carried out
The audience has grown in appetite
And doesn't always see that it too is the performance
But the unwilling blindness is all part of the sublime suspense of this subcosmic game
The planetary curiosity,
Can we make it? Would it matter?
We'll never truly die when we forget time
May 1, 2013
May 1, 2013 at 12:14 PM UTC
Dear Houston,
does the waterbug
skittering
at the bottom of the pond,
searching
for a meal or a lay,
think that the waterlogged cardboard box
floating
saggy on the surface
is a small planet or a constellation?
Is the plastic grocery bag an Oort Cloud?
When the waterbug rolls
helpless
in underwater currents
that she can't understand, is the
swirling dust, and feathers, and leaves,
a whirling Milky Way
to her?
Is the audible rumbling of the highway the voice of the universe?
May 5, 2014
May 5, 2014 at 12:25 AM UTC
High on Tumuli,
Keeled in sways washed out from brazen oceans...
...the birds may have me now...
Prey!..strip this ageing skin, then take my eyes.
Let the Oort Cloud iris break upon
these lakes of trancing humour,
as Veronicas of astral grace
silk down the valley strides.
Oct 17, 2016
Oct 17, 2016 at 11:49 AM UTC
When an astronomer says, very densely packed,
of matter - as in the Oort cloud,
he is in another scale of thought, augmented
by science used with knowledge of
fore gone conclusions as to
metrics on con sci user's
speed of thought,
where
reality doesn't care if you believe it or not.
We are all past-understanding,
we are the lifeship earth peace makers,
the entire crew, auto, right, mathic-myth,
sentience intended to manifest
in time to make that
final ******
pop the bubble of babble's biggest fuss
race
to spew the luke warm from my mouth and watch,
each drop of venom sprouts a rod
of an almond tree.
{I predicted the return of this riddle}
Maybe and whatif are not
ex-act-ed-ly, no, actually
-- see, slow… see
maybe and trust are crushed words, compacted
as the density of any den of thieves becomes
assumedwiseasstreetspunky, slang, coo'
thoughts merge from phrases to signals
true rest may be, if we survive
next as we imagine it,
resting in truth, matters or not,
spirit of philio or spirit of sophia,
we agree,
shoulder to shoulder, elbo-grease and oompha
songs,
hup, we hup, we lift the foot from the mud,
find the boot has lost its irony soul,
sould,
American, LSMFT, never forget!!
When the joker told the thief of the must be
way, the liar, himself, believed
the whole story…
that was magic, not a trick, not a cheat.
You know reality does not care.
{evidence, in the mystery of iniquity working thread}
The reason beauty is, is you. Seeing, you doing the
seeing, witnessing the irrationality
of iridescent humming birds
playing in my cloudless
January sunset,
all along the 33rd parallel.
Jan 15, 2021
Jan 15, 2021 at 7:50 PM UTC
I cannot breathe, the first time you ask me to leave
I cannot sleep, my knees keep trembling and I feel so weak
My stomach is pulling me in and out of my mind
I'm loosing myself in sickness and in fray
All I wanted is to be okay, till death rip me apart
I cannot close my eyes,
I'm melting inside
I kept hearing words, letters, numbers and voices
I needed time, space and the unknown
pull me back up
throw me out
throw me up
let me out
breathe in
and spiral me out
this needs to stop
I cannot breathe, the first time you ask me to leave
I was staring right back at you
staring deep into those eyes
so deep, that I cannot let this happen
How can I let this celestial beauty pass by
I want to dive deep inside those binary eyes
Explore the undiplomatic universe
I'll shoot myself into flare
Wander in every unknown galaxies
Watch the all the stars explode
all the black holes implode
Watch us our soul perform the ablation
I'll ride the Oort Cloud
Navigate every quadrant
Jump from planet to planet
And discover the hidden truth about those eyes
those psychotic and hypnotic eyes
Why would you not let me in? Inside those beautiful head of yours?
Now, I cannot breathe again, and again, and again and again
None of us can leave, Neither of us can escape
My body's starts shaking
My head is all over the place
I cannot breathe, when you ask me to leave
This hands keeps writing about a distant memory from the future
the words were:
"This is not happening,
this is only exist in your head,
those little voices are your worst enemy
and hey guest what?
your best friend.
They exist so you can live,
they creep at night to tell yout to sleep
But you're so afraid of them
that's why you can't sleep"
I got up went to the bathroom sink
splash some water on my face
I look in to the mirror
I stare at it
and for the longest time
I look at my face
and I said:
"You can leave"
Aug 9, 2019
Aug 9, 2019 at 1:39 AM UTC