a hook of a moon
hanging low
burying itself into the dark soil of night ploughing methodically
churning the folds of time unsympathetically
despondent
weary
oblivious to the passing seeds
of thought
laboured over.
Should I expect more
from the ruts it rolls,
perhaps growth of understanding
or a crop of acknowledgment
for my wonderment of it?
Or is it simply a tool
to capture imaginations
of a fool who secretly belives
I have an intimate bond
with its silent magnificence,
perhaps wishing it looks at me
like a brother who shares this moment.

Belive in yourself doubting never and if this hppens every day that
Life brings you'll live happy ever after
When the sun smiles down and rainbows appear
Thwill be no sad factors belive in your self don't have a negative or bd attitude belive in your self because GOD belives in you
And I do too

The real her..............
Likes to laugh
shes very nice and understanding
she belives in second chances;
love at first sight;
Fighting for what you believe in;
equal rights for all
shes the one you can get high with;
stay up all night sitting outside talking to
The real her is fragile
Shes insecure about her beauty
If i tell you alittle secret, do you promise to keep it....
The real her is not as tough as she looks
The real her will never say it but she needs her dad

..............
I am the real her
I've  stayed in the dark for so long
that no one even noticed that I was gone

Playing games
To shield myself from everything
That could hurt me outside
My shattered core
So when I for once want to reveal
My broken soul
Noone belives me

im willing to help you , but only if youre willing to help yourself

when youre drowning in a sea of sorrow , Ill be the first to jump in after you

funny how no one belives in a life line till theyre the one in the water

im willing to listen, but only if you have something worth saying

when youre muted by insults , my voice will be the one to protect you

its crazy how everyone hates annoying sounds until there is only deafining silence

im willing to never let go but onling if youre willing to hang on

when youre falling ill be the bungee cord that pulls you back up

its terrifying to fall uless you realize something is going to catch you

im willing to be there for you, but only if you let me

when youre forced to walk through hell and back, ill be right beside you

its sad cuz you have a million best friends but find out you only have 1 true friend

im willing to love you but....

but... well thats the thing ill love you unconditionally

you are a murderer,
you killed the boy
that i used to be.

the boy that
used to smile
all the time,
the boy that
used to have
a lot of friend,
the boy that
used to see
in the mirror.

now he is dead,
his eyes are open,
he rarely smile,
and he does't believe
the compliment that he recives
coz he belives
that they are just trying
to make him fell better.

you are a murderer,
you killed the boy
that i used to be.

why is it when ever i say im sorry
no
one
ever
belives
me.......

waited for so long for you to come back.
Counting everyday I haven't lost track.
They say to get over it and let it be.
I'll miss you forever even if your rite next to me.
No one understands me , they just cant tell.
Just to let you know, Im never doing well.
Im trying to succeed in life just for you.
Your the only person that belives in everything I do.
To know that your somewhere looking at the sky makes me smile.
The moon and the stars can stay for awhile.
For now, I'll take your picture wherever I go.
Look up at the stars while your sitti

why can't
we all just
get along.
to just keep
our opinions
to ourselves
and live in peace.
a man kneels
during the national anthem
because he belives
black lives matter.
instead of flooding twitter
with hateful comments
maybe just think about
why he kneels.
we are free
to take a stand
in what we
believe in
and people
need to learn
to respect that.
a girl
covers her mouth
with duct tape
for a day.
you think
she's weird.
she's actually supporting
the victims
of bullying
who can't speak up
for themselves.
instead of making fun
of her
maybe just think about
how bold that is
for her to take
a stand like that.
i am so sick
of seeing our world
plagued by hate.
you may not
agree with things.
i don't agree with things.
but i know better
and i spread
happiness.

I had an episode yesterday
I didn’t mean to
I just couldn’t stop crying
I was hyperventilating
Crying so hard that I could be heard in the next room
Harsh loud sobs that I had to cover with a shirt because I kept getting yelled at
I gagged and eventually, I had to take it out but I just couldn’t stop crying
I couldn’t stop thinking that I was a mistake and how I didn’t deserve to live
How everyone does everything for me and I just take it for granted
I try not to talk back but I get so defensive and I don’t think before I talk
I get into things and don’t listen even though I’m 17 and I’m old enough to know
My brain just keeps thinking about it and thinking about it
Then I tell myself no
But then I think about it again
And take only a little bit because then no one will notice
But they do
Then when I get in trouble I cry
Because I feel like I’m no good
And I feel so guilty
I know it’s my fault
I know I ******* up
But I can’t stop crying
Then I got so upset that my nose started bleeding
I was rocking, holding the stuffed cow my mom gave me
And I thought It was just hot tears coming out fast
But they started to rain faster
And I looked down, It was blood
All over my cow
So I started to ball
Because I was afraid he was ruined
That I could never hold him again
And think of the good parts of my old life
The horrible life I can’t seem to throw away
So I put him into the washer
Got detergent everywhere because I was rushing
Got yelled at again about how I can’t just do that
Got yelled at again to stop crying
Told there's nothing to cry about
And there wasn’t
It’s been a week since I’ve taken my meds
I take anti-depressants and antipsychotics
It’s hard to go cold turkey
It’s been more like a week and a half
I don’t know but it seems like forever
Nothing makes me happy
I’ve been depressed for weeks
First I was angry for months
Now I can’t even be the same person I was
Except on holidays
Except when I’m having a lowkey day
And finally, pull myself together
No one believes that I’m suicidal
Like it’s such a rare thing to be
I want to cut
I want to throw myself off a cliff into a river
I want to do something
I want to overdose like I always resort to doing
But I can’t because the pills in the cabinet aren't mine
And I’m not going to steal from the people who care about me the most
I just wish they’d kick me out
Stop caring so much
Because I don’t deserve it
I done so many dumb stupid mean things
I can’t let it go
I can’t get over it when everyone thinks I’m so nice and sweet and perfect
I’m not
I didn’t want to get up this morning
I just wanted to lay there
I still do
Because the blanket is so warm
When the rest of me is freezing
Like a big warm hug
I can’t show this to anyone
Because they’d just put me in a hospital
And I can’t go back
I don’t deserve the friends I have
Most of them are so good to me
But they have other people they’re best friends with
And I ditched them all when I shouldn’t have
Now I regret it
I’m not mad at anyone
I just don’t want to talk
Explain myself again
When no one understands
Or belives me
And tries to tell me
That what I’m feeling isn’t really what I’m feeling
How would they know
They haven’t been inside my head
I probably need to go to a hospital
Even I know this
But I can’t
I have school I have to go to
I have everything I could possibly want
I shouldn’t be upset