Lying? Crying? Overall inquiring?
I liked myself but I loved you!
Now every breath gets questioned, perception?

Am I seeing the truth?
The heartache, anger!
You were my anchor, keeping me down on this earth.

But now my learning equals self preserving.
By questioning my own self worth.
But one thing to remember,
Even after our adventure.

It's my fault that I ever loved you.

People turn one way,
Backside to the hills.
Never admiring the grassy fields.

People turn one way,
Towards the waves.
But only for it's beauty and play.

Your angelic hair,
Angelic lips,
Angelic stare,
Angelic hips.

When fury builds,
Best be ware,
As angry angels,
Are dangerous. Fear.

Red was my loved ones,
Orange my crazy ones,
Yellow my own self wonder.

Green was my choices,
Blue was my non-positive voices,
Purple my own self ponder.

But when mixed together,
Brown is the new found better, of dead dreams and feelings gone to waste.

So be unlike me,
Find who you truly see, and maybe,
Just maybe, you won't end on both knees.

Have you ever felt empty?
Lights dimming.
Black and white canvassing the area.
Holes. Deep, deep holes.
Your own suffocation.
Lost voice.
Holes. Deep, deep holes.
Have you ever felt empty?

Divided, torn, tarnished.
Your heart not broken. Dead.
Buried amongst the lost wishes and dreams.
Shattered hope. Emptiness.
No real idea of how or why.
Just lost, so very lost.

There are people around.
But they do not surround you.
There is no longer a reflection you recognize.
It's all warped, twisted, cracked.
Have you ever felt empty?

To hunt the moon till the sun must rise.
Or paint the pictures in the sky.

To adventure deep beyond the stars.
Or trap the memories from afar.

To drown the rivers in the sea.
Or hate the past and what's to be.

To feel the heart and hear the brain.
Or question in depth of what remains.

My dreams, they blossom a long reach.
Only to remind me of the longing I have for each.

In science you learn about the blood flowing through your heart is what keeps you alive.
The oxygen being carried around your body is what makes you survive.
Arteries, veins, and capillaries they keep blood on a full loop.
A tight leash that meets at the heart for it's annual regroup.

But after heart break everything keeps flowing.
The drowning worsens but the heart doesn't start slowing.
Arteries, veins, and capillaries they keep the blood on a full loop.
Never stopping no matter the situation the outside world puts me through.

Twisting, turning.
Frazzled twirling.
Snowflakes glistening.
Snowmen sitting.
Snowballs rolled, ready for fire.
Hot cocoa cups filled ready for hire.

Kids who've been touched by the snowflakes,
Twisting, turning.
And frazzled twirling.

My family and friends sing your praises.
They never see how your fist raises.
Your quiet and well behaved with visitors.
But loud and violent with me, one of your prisoners.

You could be a professional actor.
They don't even suspect how you attack her.
Wish you weren't so hidden and smart.
Maybe they'd see the pain you impart.

My teary eyes and silent pleas.
Just don't seem to make you agree.
My suffering is present.
But to you all ideas of it are pleasant.

I wish I could cry harder now.
The past pain seemed only the starter, ow.
The shadows on your face they are getting darker.
God please send me a knight in shining armor.