I seat in dread,
It's the corpses,
It's the tension,
And foul stench.

The way the blood drips,
Gently onto my skin,
From my head,
I'm sleepy though.

I want to rest,
I'm convinced,
I need it,
But lately I've been too convinced.

And trouble follows,
It's attracted to me,
It loves my impulses,
My irrational decisions.

That dance with danger,
With no care in the world,
Just pure self indulgence,
They love my destructive self.
By:Jn

Yes,
We are back here again,
And yet,
It's worse.

I'm becoming more cold,
Less caring,
And more numb,
I knew it.

So it's easy,
And yet I don't hate it,
I'm just surprised,
About how it's always like this.

Then again,
It's not bad,
Living on the edge,
And trying to balance things out.

And yet,
If it tips,
I'm gone,
I love the risk.

Maybe love,
Isn't for me,
It's for me to give,
Even when I don't get it.

Maybe love,
For me is a distant dream,
Due to control,
Due to me being impartial with myself.
By:Jn

Colour me impressed,
I'm stuck,
I've been lured in,
You've got my attention.

I'm hooked,
To your embrace,
That soft voice,
That calls to me.

Colour me surprised,
The way you change,
The way you sway me,
The way your body controls me.

Your scent,
Takes me places,
I can still smell you,
On my body.

Colour me entrapped,
Even when you say it's not your design,
That there isn't a plan,
That it's natural.

That's worse,
But she doesn't seem to realise that,
She doesn't know she's poisonous,
And it's addictive.

I've let her in,
Into my crazy world,
She's now a bad girl,
And it's tempting me to be bad too.
By:Jn

It's a slip really,
But nonetheless,
It's a mistake,
The world works like that apparently.

It's the way she looks at me,
It has me hesitating,
I know I want her,
And yet I'm scared to hurt her.

Love has a way,
Of being painfully sweet sometimes,
Like a melody,
Carrying nostalgia.

It's a situation,
We both brought to ourselves,
She knew what she was doing,
And so did I.

It's the way,
She finds herself in my mind,
Even when,
I'm trying to forget about her.

In this situation,
I'm in love with her,
I want to hold her close,
I don't want her slipping away.

I want her feeling the same,
And yet I can't tell,
She's good at giving me a hard time,
She's good at confusing my mind.

She snack in,
I let her through,
Inadvertently,
Into my safe spot.

Not sure she knows that,
Not sure I want her too,
I just want her around,
I want to spend time with her.

I'm in a situation,
My mind's in conflict,
It's her again,
She wants to come in.

The doors open,
For her,
It always is,
At anytime.

I'm in a bind,
I want all of her,
I want all her moments,
But I'm not sure she wants the same.
By:Jn

They say,
They talk,
Apparently,
We are in love.

I'm happy,
But it's questioning,
Due to the situation,
Due to my thoughts.

I love the idea,
Of you and I,
Happening,
Of you and me existing.

But some part of me,
Doesn't want that,
It's not a "you" problem,
It's a "me" one.

I want your love,
Your attention,
I want all of you,
Infinitely.

Yet it's the silence,
It's captivating,
I'm in love,
With both you and it.

I know,
My heart wants you,
Just as much as,
The silence.

And yet,
Here we are,
Friends,
In between all this love.

I could swear,
But I can't,
It'd be a lie,
A beautiful one.

I love you,
That is true,
But,
The idea is poisonous.

Not being,
Able to tell you,
Kills me,
And yet I'm addicted.

Maybe,
Me loving you,
Is enough,
Maybe this illusion has me caught.

I'm stuck in a what if,
Of you and I,
It's a beautiful lie,
I find myself revisiting.
By:Jn

In the most selfish way possible,
I want to break your walls,
Melt them,
And make you mine.

I want to own your smile,
Dominate your sight,
I want you looking my way only,
No distractions allowed.

Your heart belongs to me,
Just like your kisses,
Your hugs,
Your adorable self is what I own.

In the most senseless way,
You can't exist without me,
Just like I without you,
In the most selfish way possible you are to be mine.
By:Jn

Your name,
It's plastered in my mind,
It reminds me of a feeling,
One I thought I lost.

Your name,
Fixes the world around me,
I want to call you out,
For the rest of eternity.
By:Jn

And even for a moment, you stole the show. You took everything and left nothing.....

I keep going back to them, Like they exist forever. Yet I know, they are nothing but possibilities I can never live in and in my own way I didn't want them to happen.......to exist.......

I need them to stop, for me to love differently or non at all......
By:Jn

She already does,
Even in my dreams,
The way,
She doesn't want to leave.

The way,
She wants to always,
Disrupt my rest,
In all manner of ways.

The way the sun,
Rises with her,
Proves that,
It shows her importance.

The way,
Ideas are made,
With her in them,
Like it's a natural thing.

In my life,
She keeps being first,
In a way that,
Is lovely.

My good days,
Start with her,
And bad,
End with her.

She cures the silence,
Like the rain,
With a beautiful rest,
And her calm embrace.

She comes before the good times,
Before the storms are brewing,
She's better than that,
She's best first.

She knows,
I'd keep her there,
So she's kind,
She's gentle.

Maybe also,
Just a tab bit,
Proud of herself,
As she should.

I try not to show it,
Her importance,
To me,
But I think it's late.

She knows,
She understands,
That not matter what happens,
She comes first.
By:Jn

I find myself on a crossroad again,
I don't know what I feel,
And love is the last thing,
I want this to be.

Maybe it's the quiet,
Maybe it's the silence,
Maybe it's the loneliness,
That exists in this moment.

I don't know,
I don't want to feel anything,
I'm tired of it,
I'm tired of thinking,
Especially when the silence screams it's loudest.
By:Jn

For us,
The survivor's,
Here's to a new year ,
A year filled with opportunities.

A year that could change everything,
We thank God,
And we remember those we lost,
They're in our hearts forever.

To us,
The ones who made it,
Here's to more laughter,
Here's to a better future .
By:Jn

And I'd tell u not to listen to my words but that would be a lie. After all I want you and I wouldn't lie to get you. I'd speak my heart out and that in itself........could be a lie.
By:Jn

And if forever was a moment,
I'd fall for you for a few more infinite times,
And in all of them,
You won't be enough,
I'd want more of you in each one of them,
And go looking for more of you.
By:Jn

I found her quiet,
Peaceful,
In her own lane,
I found her balanced.

She looked that way,
To me she looked free,
And yet deep down,
I know we all have a story.

It started with a conversation,
It started with greetings,
It's always the cool,
Classy ones.

We didn't talk much,
But she found ways,
To understand me,
Even when she didn't know me.

I seemed easy to read,
Something,
That many have failed,
So it surprised me.

She surprised me,
In soo many ways,
And before I knew it,
I'd fallen for her.

I wouldn't let her know,
It's her rhythm,
I didn't want to interrupt,
I kept the silence.

But someone,
Called me out,
They made me realize,
I was running away.

And since then,
Things changed,
Her hugs cured me,
Her presence lived with me.

She started,
To become,
Irreplaceable,
She lives in my mind at all times.

She stole my dreams,
My laughter,
My interest,
And life all together.

She had problems,
And my selfish self,
Got impatient,
I've become another problem.

She has to live with,
I should have waited,
I should have stood there,
In the silence for her.

Her happiness comes first,
Her smile has importance,
Her well being is everything,
I think I messed that up.
By:Jn

I'd dare to call her a goddess,
She's well rounded,
She's an appeal to me,
And all those around her.

My intentions are pure,
And yet she's the problem,
She brings unwanted thoughts,
She tempts me by just existing.

I haven't seen her ugly before,
All she does is beautiful,
All her mistakes are a sight to behold,
She's always looking fascinating.

Her character is just,
She understands empathy,
Because she knows of pain,
Everything about her hits home for me.
By:Jn

A heart once whole,
Now shattered and cold,
Love's sweet embrace,
Now an empty space,
Tears fall like rain,
Amidst the pain,
A love once true,
Now a sad adieu.
But take heart dear friend,
For love will mend,
Though now you're apart,
Love will heal your heart.
By:Jn

I have a feeling of wonder,
I want to go places,
Places I haven't yet reached,
A place that will feel me with joy.

A place I have in mind,
A place I've seen through sight,
I watch it all the time,
Through a window.

Their cultural aspect,
Peaks my interest,
I want to know their stories,
Their way of life.

They indulge in everything,
It's their unique way of their intriguing cuisine,
That gives a taste of something exquisite,
As exquisite as it is, I long to see,

From Seoul tower,
The city's beauty,
To Jeju island, where breezes flow,
It's charm and wonders, a peaceful glow.
by: Jn & Rory

People fall,
They love,
And it makes them dumb,
Just as much it does make them smart.

They fall for the moments,
They fall deep into love,
It opens infinite possibilities,
They become Powerful.

Love makes them brave,
Makes them comfortable,
It's addictive,
To fall in love.

In a dangerous way,
It controls them,
It's scary,
Just as much as it is amazing.

Love truly is blind,
Love is intoxicating,
Tell me what would you do,
For love, would you fall?.

By:Jn

I have a problem,
I can't learn to love you,
I don't know why,
But you love me.

Your true,
You are convinced,
That you can change me,
Yet I couldn't change myself.

With you for a year,
But I hesitate,
I can't let you go,
Regret keeps me close.

It makes me stay,
Your kind,
Am the problem,
Yet you don't understand.

Am a walking disaster,
A walking mess,
I crave love,
The type that ends the same day.

I'm romantic,
In the moment,
I'm true,
I hate tomorrow.

I don't think about it,
Or of myself in it,
I'm momentary,
I love soo true when I do.

Save me,
Set yourself free,
Before I consume you,
With a beautiful lie.
By:Jn