Sometimes
I want to break
So that I can pull myself together
So that I can rebuild my strength

Sometimes
I want to scream
So that I won't have to
feel a thing

Sometimes
I want to cry
So that I'm reminded I'm still human
But nothing comes although I try

Sometimes
I want to hurt
So that I can forget my pain

But instead
I do nothing
Because sometimes
Doing nothing
Hurts more than anything

I feel blessed
I feel I am important
I feel alive
I feel this is just a dream
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I want more
I want to explore the world
I want to achieve something
Which has never been dreamed before

Beautiful minds seem to always get lost
They wander through dreams and memories long expired
And can't find the way out when they have not a thing to desire
Like jotted ink in the rain
Their promises run away from their mind
And they get lost in a loop that they think of as life

It may seem pointless now
It may do for a while
It may hurt so much
Until you can no longer feel
But it will change
Your fears will become strengths
And once your beautiful minds have found their way out
You can live your life again
And never give up

The world told me to cry,
but i still smiled.
The world told me to die,
but I am still alive.
The world told me stay quiet,
but I still fight.
But sometimes the world is right,
that's why I lied.

The man
who kept
his emotions
at bay
drowned
in them
all
one
winters
day