RedD - Hello Poetry

RedD Sep 2018

Love
It’s a curious thing
Wanted so much but wasted when you have it
If you have already it don’t waste it
Embrace it, cherish it but learn to let go if it’s no longer firing your soul.

That’s the hardest thing about love, the letting go

You can’t replace the love you once had but you can learn to make a new one

Each will be different
Each love will make you feel totally different
Learn to love a new love, accept it for what it is and how it makes you feel

Love
It’s a curious thing

Just some thoughts I shared recently
Not poetry as such
I’m learning to move on

#love #acceptance #curious #time

RedD Sep 2018

Snippets...

My body at rest
My mind at peace
I hear the bell
That familiar tone

You reach out from afar
My senses quicken
I reach too
Stretch out my hand

To hold you close
I listen to your voice
A tone so familiar
My heart, it melts again

Just like before

And like it always will

I will never tire of hearing your voice S ❤️

#voice #listen #telephone

RedD Sep 2018

Not my cup of T

You got me drunk
You got me ******
Invaded my weakest moments
So desperate to please
To feel something
I had my doubts

I told you what I liked
Hoping you liked the same
We tested the waters
Pushed the boundaries
Learning together
I had my doubts

You punished me
Took my breath momentarily
Hurt me, made me want more
I came to you for all of this
You made sure
But I had my doubts

I got me drunk
I got me ******
Feeling everything but nothing
I had my doubts

From the haze I awoke
Standing on the filthy kitchen floor
No longer in doubt

I didn't want to hurt
Didn't want to get drunk
Didn't want to get ******
Just to feel something

I had to let you go
To get on with your life
Of getting drunk
Of getting ******
I like to think you've changed
But I have my doubts

One of the hardest points in my life recently, at my most vulnerable. Luckily I woke up

#vunerable #doubts #breakup #realisation #******

RedD Sep 2018

When you left on Wednesday

How do I feel now?
Now that you are gone?
Not gone from my life
But only at the end of a phone?

A few words written
A few at a time
A few days at a time

I can't touch you
I can't taste you
I can't kiss you

I love to do all these things
I know you love them too

I long to hold you
To stroke your face
Kiss your neck

Feel your body next to mine
Feel your warmth inside me
Filling me with joy

That I can't explain
Its for us to share
But I want to share this forever

Do you feel the same?

Until the next time S ❤️

#waiting #warmth #body #taste #touch #kiss

RedD Sep 2018

Vicinity

From across the room
I catch a glimpse

You stand tall
Physical yet vulnerable

Longing holds my heart in chains
Remembering times we have spent

Entwined

I feel this each time
I catch a glimpse

Of you

Lets break these chains
My love

If only everyone in the room could see how much I want you S

#glimpse #glance #chains

RedD Sep 2018

A letter, my world

I have too much on my mind don't I?
Feel too much honesty too soon
Too soon for you?
Possibly
I apologise

I apologise my way through life, always
Its just how it always is
Has always been
But I won't apologise about my feelings for you
I can't
I won't

You make me feel this way
You must own that
I own it, I own my feelings now
I'm not afraid if people know
(about us)
But its not the right time
Just now
I know this

And that is what's so hard
Having to contain everything I feel
Just like a ball in the palm of my hands
I'm so afraid if I let go
I'll never get to hold it again
It will roll too far away
Out of reach

And Someone else will pick it up
Take it for their own
I'm not good with sharing
I don't want to share
Not you anyway

1st page started of as this then I vomited out a 5 page A4 letter
Good to release
Might hide those 5 pages

#unleash #letter #apologise #own

RedD Sep 2018

To think

Thoughts of you
Memories of us

Come and go
Take over my being

Engulf my body
The pain is constant

When I am alone
Without you

Just this...everyday

#alone #pain #memories