A child,
Yet still a man,
Last at deep sea.
His hands
Such rust.
His feet
So clean.
He did not know
When he screamed,
I heard.
Through his tears,
I sneer
For I am awake.
Dangerously near
Yet far, far away.
Dangerously near,
Centimeters away.
But you can’t see me.
I’m tricky that way.
I love you.
I love you.
And my love will,
It will,
Yes, it will.
It.
Will.
****.
The white-hot death
Frozen in a scream.
Never shall you leave
My embrace,
For I long to forever caress
Your face.
You’ll never know my true name
Though I am the source
Of your deepest shames.
The Red Man is gone,
Dead by your blade.
Perhaps it’s time for Blue
To stake his claim.
You won’t see me coming,
When you do it will be too late.
I’ll be having my fun.
When you see my wicked face,
Run.

I closed my eyes and in hopes that you'd
suddenly materialize, I breathed in, deep.
The darkness ebbed and flowed.
I slowly lifted each lid, revealing
an emptiness before me
and an emptiness within.
I wish I could summon
you here.

i envy those who do not feel so hard
or think too deeply
because **** this **** is exhausting
trying to find the perfect words
or trying to find the reason for everything

Season of rain is here
but I don't feel a thing
maybe cause the rain has always been here
or is it just because its spring

They say after rain comes a rainbow
but I don't even see the sun
only wondering where it go
maybe I'm just the unlucky one

I don't see the sun's brightness
that resonate within me
but only the rain's darkness
that has always engulfed me

So I always ask myself,
has there always been a rainbow?

Sometimes I laugh,
Sometimes I ghost.
Sometimes I'm found,
Sometimes I'm lost.
Sometimes I wonder,
Sometimes I cry.
Sometimes I conquer.
Sometimes I wish to die.

Maybe pain is just right in us,
hibernating all the time.
Waiting for a trigger to infect us,
to engulf us and put us in tears.
Maybe pain is inside us,
it can't be removed, erased,
and even deleted in our system.
Happiness just need to overwhelm us,
and drown this pain in us,
for us to feel, to live.
And even if I'm bleeding everyday,
this pain that cut me in every way.
I will say that I'm okay
and accepted the fact that
pain is just right in us, in me.