Shannon

Aug 2018

Kiahlee

I'm sorry to say.
I cut again today.

#depression #alone #cut

Shannon Aug 2018

i steal your shirt that i know you didn't wash
just for me.
i wear your shirt and it turns into the embodiment of safety
and i wear it to sleep in your bed;
and takes me back to that safe place when i am alone in my own.
i steal your shirt for the smell and the feel
the knowing that its touched your skin now mine
the smell, oh
the smell puts me to sleep faster than the pills do
and the love.
love in each and every fibre.
I sit here with the fabric pressed against my nose
breathing it in
breathing you in
because although you are not here
when i need you
you are here

who knew fabric could smell so sweet.

#him #me #shirt #stolen #heart #love #us #boy

Shannon Aug 2018

loving you and wondering why.

lost.

Shannon Aug 2018

As the sea

She is the ocean
Between two warring islands
Not involved in the conflict, yet
Most of the gunfire hit the water
Belongs to both, yet
Neither shall pick up the white flag
To save the ocean from drowning herself
Polluted and corrupted, yet
The perceived saviours are really just pirates
On little boats, but who dares cross the sea.
Can't you see that she's damaged enough?
Real saviours offer no solution,
Offer no ignorant reaffirmations of
It'll all be fine, because
They know that forcing the sunlight onto the sea
Will only burn her, yet
A slow shed of light shall warm her.
I am the ocean
Between two warring islands.
And my soul is lost at sea.

#love #lost #parents #soul #gunfire #corrupt #saviour #drown

Shannon Aug 2018

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Kiss me under thousands of suns
Kiss me on rooftops music loud
Kiss me in the light of the morning
And in the moonlight under a rain cloud

#love #kiss #you #me

Shannon Aug 2018

Friday’s at yours.

Friday's at yours are special to me
Whether we're going out to the theatre
Whether we stay in to watch movies
Friday's at yours are special to me
It always starts with tea and ends with a kiss
and theres always a cuddle or three
Friday's at yours are special to me
You are my stormboy
You are my light
Friday's at yours are special to me
You are all my favourite love songs
You are the epitome of safety and fearless
Friday's at yours are special to me
Curled up, no matter where we go
In your arms safe and calm and happy and
free.
Friday's at yours are special to me
We laugh and kiss and look and love
We discover new things about each other.
Friday's at yours are special to me
you play with my hair and I scratch your back
and we kiss like nobody else exists
Friday's at yours are special to me
you walk me out in just your socks,
kiss me tenderly,
wave goodbye.
Friday's at yours are special to me
Going home, leaving you alone in your room
kills me. all I wish is to fall asleep in your arms and
not have to wake up
alone
Friday's at yours are special to me
i get home and we're still talking
talk until we fall asleep
alone
but happy
Friday's at yours are special to me

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0ohjCX99Gkg

#love #me #you #friday #kiss #asleep

Shannon Aug 2018

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When I first met you I lived by
What do you have to lose.
6 months later who knew that the clumsy punch spilling boy with sparkling eyes would have captured my eyes and now; my heart.
6 months down the track and you’re the first person I wanna tell all my good stories too.
And the bad.
6 months of knowing you, and I know your favourite colours and how you take your coffee and the reasons why you rub your thumb when you’re nervous.
6 months of talking to you and I know how you smell when you come out of the shower, I know when you just need a hug and I know when I don’t say I love you back it hurts you just a little bit.
6 months of you and I know your poetry gives you a piece of sanity.
6 months and I know how you look with stage makeup and I know the face you make when you’re losing yourself in the moment.
6 months and you accept my past and all that comes with it, 6 months and you’ve seen me cry and held me through it, 6 months and your dedication has been unfaltering.
My boy;
You are what I have looked for my whole life.
You are what people spent their whole lives looking for,
And seldom find.
You are everything I could have wished for.
You’re my lover
My tiger
My favourite
My everything,
You are everything to me.
What do I have to lose
has led me to you
and now you here you are
and you are absolutely
everything
to me.

#you #i #me #love #months #bf