Long hallways lead into my brain
Dark hallways all the same.

Read
       me...

Crawl through my thoughts
Look into one of the empty slots.

Look
       deeply...

Between the lines youll find pain
Open my compartments and let it all drain.

Slowly
       seeping...

Crazy thoughts fill the air
Wondering if someway, somehow you're still there.

Quietly
       weeping...

Tears flowing sadness
Releasing pure madness.

Evermore
       sinking...

One night as I crept into bed
And said a deafening prayer
With a heavy head
And mightless weight
I thought about how I'd aged

Flashbacks of childhood days
Began to take small shape
Things I thought I'd long forgotten
Began to return in little ways

With the company of the lightning
Oh what a calamity it was
So calming yet damning
For I knew it was for me
Some transgressions need to be tranquilised

At once I became a tinker in a forest
Lost beyond comprehension
Like the child that I never was
With the happiness I never lived

Delirium slowly takes over as
The pills begin to take effect
I have always wondered
How such little contraptions
Could do so much damage to our bodies
Wreck it entirely
And leave us frothing for a second chance

And as I ruminated at length
As my mind darted from tree to tree
I began to wonder
How I came into existence
And a little satisfaction as I thought
'Why me?'
Oh nights like these
Can leave you hanging
When questions have no answers
To be seen

As the flashbacks ended so too did the lightning
Though thunder stayed to remind me
That wrath and wreckage will deliver
What courage cannot make quit

For years on end I
Traipsing on ropes as thin as these
Living on a trampoline
But what if delusion blinds
And there is no one at the end of the string
And as I hit the ground
Blood smashes me piece by piece
And loudly I chide myself
For my lack of belief
Where is all the hope I used to have?
Though I never was doe-eyed
Nor ever claimed to be
But innocence lost is tantamount
To the human spirit's defeat

And here I lay
Hands clasped
On my chest
How I remember the last time I ever wished so badly
For recovery
How I threw caution to the wind
And expected to be protected
So recklessly
The last time I envisioned
How my funeral might be
Will I be clutching roses?
Will I die without anyone knowing?
Will the silent screams of the sea
Overshadow all my grief?
Or will there be none
As I leave smiling
Happier than I have ever been
And to these thoughts there are no answers
To such wild dreams no reality
My heavy head was not wired
To ever ruminate so deeply

In the span of 20 minutes
I saw my life flash past me
Perhaps not because I was about to lose it
But for the sake of reminding me
That of all the things that can be lost easily
Life
Has most melee
And we are taking so many things for granted
As if they're guaranteed
As if our heart is build to last
In our ribs of helix steel

And this night most of all
I decided I was going to live freely
In the new life that soon awaits me
To be who I need to be

And these pills that foremost mean to heal will guide me into sleep

It doesn't interest me
to know how much you make
or what your grades are
or what your parents do for a living.

What interests me is what gets that sparkle in your eye --

I want to know how you pick yourself up when you're down
and how you deal with heartache and despair.
I want to know how you deal with sadness, yours and mine.
I want to know what gets your fingers tapping and your blood boiling.
I want to know what you do when your back is against the ropes and all you can do is hope.

I don't care to know
all that you have missed out on,
but rather what will you do with all that you have now.

I want to know that you will not let the regrets overcome you,
and that you will appreciate all that you have
even if it wasn't what you had originally anticipated.

- Ashes (ABD)

On the way I come
Highway that jam
Fumes and smoke
Outskirts of a town
Worries and strain
Cars up and down
Headache a spark!
I call it my travel
Inside a matatu van
Heating and boiling us
Or me
I be specific
No music to flow
This is turning rough
Maybe
Next time
I should be on my person

Your eyes shine with more intensity than the ocean can roar
Their image forever embedded within my mind
Reaching even the deepest crevices
Bringing light tot even the darkest depths
Awakening me from within
They're so easy to get lost in
It's like  I become cloud
Lost in the vast, endlessly beautiful blue sky that is your eyes
Your eyes
Yeah
You could say I adore them.

The rosy-cheeked captured
between metal sculptures
that are positioned properly,
feng shui.
Mistaking the pseudo-corridor
as a route to the restroom,
embarrassing herself
in a new culture,
growing uneasy,
gathering steam on cheek.

Snickering from elders
loosen up her ****** lines,
realigning the room.
Guided back to her seating space,
ease comes more naturally.
Meals as important and the
affection she shares with him,
making her a cartographer,
mapping love and territory unknown,
especially this family space.