i believe it is wrong to say "it's not about how you get there, its about the end result" because when you finally make it to where you want to be will you be proud of what you have done, when there's no where to go, not even back.

you look upon the future
with fear and dread
because of what you already know
or at least what you think you know
is going to occur
whereas i look upon the future
with hope and careful consideration
because what you fear
is not set in stone
and the future
is not yet determined
and to me
so distant

how could i possibly be lonely
laying in bed at night
when the sound of silence
ringing in my ears
keeps me company
and the thoughts
are so loud
that i can hear them
as though
they're whispering
in my ear

you told me not everyone is mentally ill
and i stopped to think
i couldn't imagine what that feels like
do they wake up smiling
or is it just a facade
can they hold a conversation
without spacing out
do day to day tasks
without getting overwhelmed
it's just really hard to imagine
but then again
i don't even understand
my own mind

everything will be okay
a reassuring phrase
used by
people
that don't possibly know
the outcome
or
the future

i've worn glasses for as long as i can remember
i can't remember the day i got my first pair
hell i don't even remember what having normal vision is like
if i even had it
depression is a lot like that
once you have it
you don't really remember what its like to not have it
i may not have had it my whole life
yet it sure feels like forever
but thats a thing i've adjusted to
like my eyesight
with a new pair of lenses

time seems to go by slow when you wish it wouldn't, and races when you want the moment to last