I’m going to shine brighter, now that you’re not here
I constantly asked why I’m not good enough, living in fear
Why didn’t you love me, the way I loved you?
Is there something I could say, something I could do?
I would’ve done almost anything to keep you with me
I tried everything I could to get you to see
That this is ******* worth it, there was something special to grow
We could’ve made permanent, our beautiful flow
My heart saw no limits, I knew you were great
The distance was ****** but you were worth the wait
It hurts to let you go, but this caused so much pain
I may have loved you, but you didn’t feel the same
I’m strong enough to walk away, to remember my soul
If you aren’t going to fight for me, I’m glad this is null

Even with you, I’m so ******* lonely
We don’t really talk much, you just want to hold me
I need so much more depth, much more connection
But it seems like you’re only interested in getting an *******
Is there anything left to experience or is this all we’ve got
Because I’m not having any fun, nothing’s being taught
Where is your wisdom, where is your love
Where are your feelings and what you’re thinking of
I just feel so far away but you insist this is right
We hardly ever talk from morning to night
We don’t really sit down and get to know each other
You never let me finish my story about having a half brother
What’s the point of this, is this even nice
I’m not heeding my soul, I’m just smoking my vice
Head in the sand and dirt in my ears
I’m not listening to my heart, I’m listening to my fears

I get lost in my mind and the waves pull me down
I try to ask for help but I can’t make a sound
I don’t want to hurt others with the pain that I feel
But sometimes I need reassurance that this is all real
Does this plane exist, am I really here?
Am I straying from love and moving towards fear?
I want to be grounded with my mind in the sky
Yet lately I can’t feel my feet, I’m going too high
When I sit with myself, I feel so much pain
I try to work through it and not go insane
But I get lost in my mind...and the waves pull me down
I try to swim up, I’m not ready to drown...

I wanted to explore your Universe
But all I got was a black hole

This time I'm going to do the hermit thing right
Inner-work and self-love from morning to night  
Awareness of all my woes and insecurities  
Connecting with universal flows and obscurities
Going into my depths, no human interference
Focusing on my soul, not my appearance
Transmuting all my deep pain into sweet pleasure
While turning these dark coals into beautiful treasure
This focus and expansion is serving me well
Returning to my inner heaven, away from this hell