Where did all
The Human Beings Go?

I see them come
I see them go

Just one good friend
And that is all

Sitting in my room
Looking at the wall

Everyone always asks
How are you?

And nobody ever knows
Strange but true

Some will say good
And others fine

I watch women
Pleasure themselves
On Chaturbate

To pass the time

Like a spear
Running through my veins
Like a million galaxy
Skies passed with rains
I feel distant
Abandoned
Swimming in shame
Running away from laughter
From happiness you drained
From the sun that hides
When you rise dark memories
I wish my days would go back
Before my heart won its battle
Before realizing that by winning
The war was not really over
Come back with your army again
Bash me with misery
Rip my soul in pieces
**** my existence
Bury me deeper and deeper
Let there be no more of me
Then dive again
In your river of flame

I don't want to feel ok,
Ok is a lie when I see wars on tv and I just watched children die.
Please don't be ok,
Please don't let this be ok.  
Don't let a false sense of security become an excuse for apathy.

Not a mystery anymore
Just a broken soul
Added to your diary
People read about me a lot
You write about me too much
I tell my secrets to strangers
Open my heart to people I don't know
Maybe I shouldn't be so open
What happened to being a shut in
I guess it disappeared
Not a mystery
More an open book
Living for Dummies

Deep thoughts and cautious words
Sharing secrets and feelings
Talking about anything and everything
It's all gone now
This has to be one of the most awkward
Half hour conversations I've ever had
Seems there's nothing to say
Is the spark gone?
Did the connection disintegrate?

You didn’t tell me about farewell.
I had no idea
how much I could miss you
until missing you
was the only thing
I could do.

If I could be some kind of God for just a day
I would take all of your pain away
replacing your every crying tear you've ever had, My Dear
turning them into days of sunshine toward the past
I've made plenty of mistakes while you grew up
you were so wonderful to love
heaven sent you to me from above
and, now that you have grown
I wish I could have known
that the same scars given to me as a lass
have now gone onto the next generation's torch to pass
You say that I am dead to you
I pray to God someday that somehow I'll find a way
to stay strong for you, and say
If I could be a God for just a day --
I'd make all your pain, and sadness go away
My daughter I am sending sunshine, and love to you...
Each, and every single day..
I wish that you could see just how precious you are to me...
And these icy tears I cry are just filled with so many questions why...
now my own mother that scarred my heart back when
starting way back before I turned ten...
seems to have convinced you of all her "zen"
it's just so ironic to me that's all...
how all the secrets, and the lies get replaced
I now carry your own Grandmother's disgrace.