thepuppeteer

thepuppeteer Apr 16

I'm not in control

I can't stop

I don't want to destroy myself
But my hands, they do

I yell and scream
Try as I might
I cannot stop

My hands won't listen to me
They are not mine

Please stop tearing me apart
Please stop the pain
Please stop destroying this body of mine

This poem is about a type of BFFB disorder known as Skin Picking Disorder. I feel rather uncomfortable talking about this topic other than what it's about, so I would appreciate it if you don't ask questions about my struggles with it personally.

#control #selfdestroy #bfrb #disorders #skin #health

thepuppeteer Mar 22

We're Going to Crash Again

I see it coming
We're going to crash again

It's going to happen

Something

Bad

Is

Going

To

Happen

They're going to be hit by a car
That house is going to come crashing down

I see it
I see it all

I see it
It's coming

We're going to crash again

I'm ******* terrified

I can't live how I used to before

I can't go on my phone anymore

I have to watch
I have to pay attention

We're going to crash again

Life isn't how it was before

And no one will understand

I know I haven't posted in a while, I've been busy. This poem is about how I feel after my car crash, this car crash happened recently, March 5th 2025, there was a bad snowstorm where I live and school wasn't canceled even though practically all other schools were. The other woman who was driving couldn't stop and slid into the rear passenger door (where I was sitting), ever since then I can't stop seeing the car about to crash whenever we're in a roundabout or we get close to other cars, and sometimes I even see accidents happen that aren't even related to the accident, it's like I just keep having visions of accidents happening whenever I see something that could result in an accident, these accidents usually never actually happen, but it makes it hard to continue regular life while riding in the car.

#accident #anxiety #car #snowstorm #driving #fear

thepuppeteer Mar 10

How do I

How do I smile?
How do I frown?
How do I laugh for a while?
How do I scowl?
How do I sneer?
How do I tell people how I feel?
Why don't I show people how I feel?
Why don't people understand?
My face
How do I change the look on my face?

#emotions #face #understanding #blank #sadness

thepuppeteer Mar 8

Who I am

I could be so much more
There is a want inside of me
To be so much more
I want to show people
Who I truly am
I want them to understand
The genius inside of me
What you see
Is only a portion of me

#mind #wanting #hope #life #genius

thepuppeteer Mar 8

Freedom

A bird trapped in a cage cannot fly

I am a bird trapped in a cage
But oh how I yearn to soar

If that bird is set free
It will soar and fly
It will come back.

I was a bird trapped in a cage
Oh how I yearned to be free

When I was set free
I soared and flew
And I came back
Because I was given freedom

#freedom #birds #trapped #lonely #isolation #control #love

thepuppeteer Mar 8

A Heavy Weight

A heavy weight on your shoulders will only grow heavier.

People around you support you to lift that heavy weight.

When nobody sees that heavy weight you eventually fall down.
The weight will be too heavy to bear.

You have no clue as to what to do.

But in the end you should know.

Your path does not end here.

It is not the end of the world.

Don't be afraid to hug yourself too.

#selflove #hope #stress #friendship #overwhelmed