When I first saw you across the room, our eyes met.

You had a smile that took me prisoner.

Faster than light,

you spread through my veins like a wild flower.

You glowed with the light of a million stars

and you cloaked me with an aura that lifted me

Higher than the moon. But that was summer.

Remember you told me you loved me

In that Celtic girl accent of yours?
  (“I really love you”)

In the autumn you hid your smile

and took back your cloak.

In your eyes I saw winters approach.

that filled me with a chill. Why then;

when I close my eyes; can I see you still?

Wrapped in the words of my love.

I am hurt

Hurt am I

Love me!

Me love

Only me.

Me only

Love you.

You love

Him only

Only him.

I am hurting

Hurting am I

Seed

Sow

Shoot

Sapling

Tree

Chop

Sawn

Cut

Log

Fire

Embe­rs

Ash!

The bullying husband cold as ice,

Who everyone else thought so nice.

The lover laying feet way,

The nagging wife with nothing to say.

Unpublished remedies to cure disease

Regrets from people too easy to please,

People that were misunderstood

The naughty boy who was really so good.

The murdered child on a blue silk pillow

Laying yards away from her un-found killer.

The practical joker who used to enjoy

The people he mostly used to annoy.

The fighter a hard man with stories untold,

Is forgot for his kindness and heart of gold.

Service men and woman who fought in the wars

Defending our freedoms and died for the cause,

Brave acts committed that never were seen

Are now dead ambitions and unfulfilled dreams.

The fretful, the jolly, the ladies’ man,

The girl from the shop who died in her pram!

The man whose daughter he never discovered

Was not really his, but his younger brother's!

Men and woman who never showed fear

The local landlord who watered his beer

The brilliant singer who never made good

Ambition stifled by motherhood.

The secrets, the truths, the terrible lies;

Buried for ever, from prying eyes.

I had a Viking long ship

For us to sail

And a blanket of stars

For you to unveil

I had castles and bays

To show you around

And a heart made of gold

I thought I had found

I had fields full of poppies

And daisy’s to walk

We had cosy nights in with

Reasons to talk

I had books of verse

And poetry to read

I thought we had everything

That we’d ever need

I had hills full of snow

To walk up and down

I had us holding hands

In old York town

We had deserts to cross

And oceans to fly

But we never got by

The T in the try

I had for us, all that I

Ever dreamed

It’s funny how things

Just aren't what they seem.

I can remember your face, white and strangely bold

As if exposed too often to the moon.

Your eyes of blue were strangely old; As if exposed to pain,

Often and too soon.

I remember your body pale and white;

The beat of your heart like a bird in flight.

And summers have passed since loves first met.

But I remember when we lay together for the first time;

As the stars smiled and the moon said “excuse me”

And tiptoed away.

I'm scared of the silence
                                                 It speaks to me
Of dangers and demons
                                                 And monstrous things

It's haunting my nightmares
                                                 It sings me to sleep
Turning all of my fears
                                                 Into reality