I'm not perfect
Not even close
But I swear,
I'm trying

I study
For hours
Then deny it
The next day
For only
The nerds
Study

I plan
My outfit
Each night
But it's carefully planned
To not look carefully planned,
So no one knows
It took effort

I know I'm not perfect
Not even close
But I swear,
I'm trying

I give it my all
But all I get
For my efforts
Is a growing stack
Of mistakes
And errors

I'm beginning to think
It's not worth it

Maybe I should just
Shut up
And give up

Never bother anyone
With my words again

I know I'm not perfect
Not even close
But I swear,
I'm trying

However,
I am close
To giving up

I swear
This guilt
Will be
What kills me

Here I am
My life is good
I should be happy
Or at least not
Whatever this is

I should not be sad
I have such support

There are so many
Who have it worse
Who am I
To feel this way?

This guilt
Will be
What kills me

You'll see

Can you see me?
                                                      I see you.
                         Can you hear me?
                                                          As­ I hear you.
                    
                        Do you know how much I cry at night?
                      Do know how much I want to be hugged tight?
                    Do you how much I want to smile?
                        One that no ones seen in a while.
                             Do you know how much it hurts to be ignored?
                       Like your something ***** and torn?
                              Can you be my saving LIGHT or will you leave me to the NIGHT?
                                           I am a wallflower.
                                             I am the ghost.
                                            I. Am. Invisible.