My heart fell, my stomach knotted,
I pleaded, I cried, I apologized.
I owned up to the wrong I did to you, and your beautiful trust-
I regret

You don't know, but you're the only one who still calls,
my whole day rests on the notification on the screen-
and I still was stupid enough to mess it up
I regret it

I can't imagine truly functioning without you,
please, please don't shut me out,
please, please still be my best friend in the morning
I regret it, but

Don't worry, the but is there for me,
and my stinking pile of guilt that lies on my chest,
I shouldn't have done it, I hope you forgive me, it's all I have left
I regret it, but I

I wonder if Eve regretted the apple and the fall?
How could she apologize to Adam,
for one stupid mistake, and yet everything was wrecked-
I regret it, but I deserve

I am sorry, it's not enough
I regret it, so so very much
please forgive me, this poem, it's for you
I regret it, but I deserve your anger, be mad-
but still be my friend in the morning?

now the lambs are all bleating at once
and mothers calling back;
its definitely something to do with that Sun
rising in the East higher and higher inch by inch

What makes me
Is the way
I make poetry
The way
I view a tree

I sometimes give
And I sometimes give in
Questioning the way I live
Loops and twists and circles
Make it hard to stay positive

I know not restraint
Whether in life
Or the nightmares I paint
When I give
It's always more than I make
That is not by mistake

Things done
Things to be
Is the cause of one
That one is me

Loops and twists and circles
Tend to unwind
Just keep your head up
Stay out of your own mind
Enjoy the theoretical
Concept of time

This pink mass of mist
it glows when we touch
my waking has surrendered
it belongs to you
but the boulder
this crippling weight still sits

misty fog can't fly
can't float
never could
that rocky weight
it finally caught a cloud
and pinned it down

i didn't mean to show you
i never wanted you to see this
this amazingly heavy burden I carry
please don't let it catch your cloud

maybe I too often feel like a burden
only because I have lived as one
and this fear of being what I am
it adds ounces every day

maybe that's what I've been trying to get rid of
not my earthly weight
but the one that caught my cloud
Is that the one I've been trying to starve out?

Blankets never had it so good,
and I just need someone to hold.

I had a dream
About you
Again last night
I saw you in the grocery store
You didn't see me
But
I saw you
I saw you searching for the things you needed
To make tea
And chicken noodle soup
Sickness maybe
I wanted you to see me
To realize how much you miss me
That you needed me all this time
Like I needed you
But you didn't notice I was watching you

Tell the ones you Love, that you Love them today, because life can slip to quickly away
Take to time to spend time with family and friends
Today cherish every moment
Today appreciate them for the rare treasure that they are.